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F.E.A.R (Forget Everything And Remember/For Everything A Reason) by PaxAm
Fandoms: The Martian (2015), The Martian - Andy Weir
14 Apr 2026
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The close observation of the food packets ceased as Mark realised something. As his eyes passed over the pile of silver, he noted mentally that there weren’t many left. It should have occurred to him that Duh, of course there’s not many left, you’re only here for another week.
But that voice of reasoning was instantly flattened by the instinctual worry created by eighteen months of worrying about fucking starving. It had been wired in Mark’s brain to instantly spiral in anxiety when he saw anything of the likes; not enough food, broken Hab canvas, frozen-over potatoes-
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Mark spirals when he sees the food supply dwindling. Beck and Martinez help him out.
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Benton had left without a word, but when Carter swivelled around, ready to leave himself, he’d spotted the man’s crumpled undershirt, laying in a heap on the bench. It was no conscious decision, really, that pushed him to snag the shirt.
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Carter jerks off to the scent of Benton's stolen shirt.
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All it had taken was four words.
“So, about that blowjob?”
Seconds later, Mickey found himself crowding Ian into a cramped bathroom stall of the shitty diner they’d stopped at, pressing rough kisses to Ian’s neck and palming himself over the rough fabric of his jeans.
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Ian takes Mickey up on his promise of "any time"
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Steve Harrington and Eddie Munson are both in need of a slot of a summer concert being held by their music college, both for different reasons. It turns out, there's only one space left.
They're forced to work together for a final concert, struggling through past conflict and fighting current afflictions.
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A MusicCollege!Au in which steve and eddie are reunited.
On an indefinite haitus
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I Was Me, But Now He's Gone. by PaxAm
Fandoms: Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
22 Jul 2025
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What if the fight scene in ROTS ends more abruptly?
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Anakin is caught off guard in his duel with Obi-Wan.
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PaxAm's Whumptober 2024 by PaxAm
Fandom Band of Brothers (TV 2001), Deadpool - All Media Types, Dream SMP, Hannibal (TV), Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic), Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Pacific (TV), Wolverine (Movies), X-Men (Alternate Timeline Movies), X-Men (Movieverse), X-Men - All Media Types
24 May 2025
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Whumptober 2024 - Non-Completionist.
Fandoms:
- X-Men [8]
- Star Wars (Prequels) [6]
- Band of Brothers [2]
- Heartstopper [1]
- Deadpool & Wolverine[1]
- The Outsiders [1]
- Hannibal [1]
- The Pacific [1]
- Dream SMP [1]- Words:
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The story of "You're Like a Breath of Fresh Air", both from Eugene's and Babe's perspective.
I wrote Eugene's view, then the lovely Lady_Rhaena inspired me to write Babe's.
Eugene can't stand to listen to the cries of his men, knowing he's been instructed to sit back from the patrol. It's when he finds out that someone is drowning that he steps in.
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Carter is a medical student at County General, and he’s exhausted most days. When his body finally gives in and catches a cold, he knows he can work through it.
Can’t he?
Right?
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- Part 1 of Asthmatic (in denial) Carter.
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john is having a rough night, peter knows how to help
Series
- Part 1 of do you think i'm pretty?
Bookmarked by PaxAm
27 Jun 2026
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Patrick is splitting and tweaks the fuck out. Very self-indulgent, sorry.
Bookmarked by PaxAm
27 Jun 2026
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Praise was sparse in the Carter household, but John discovered that when he left food on his plate, a "good boy, John. Learning when to stop when you're full" would always follow.
But he wasn't full.
He was never full.
But that ache, that gnawing pain in the pit of his stomach, that was what love felt like.
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Scenes from an adolescence spent fighting for love in all the wrong ways.
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John knows what’s coming—it’s both a premonition and a memory. He can feel it in his skin and bones. The lattices of faded scars on his back begin to throb like a warning. Playing out before him is no longer the story of Peter and Reese, but that of a scrawny boy kneeling on the floor of Jack Carter’s study.
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John gets pulled into a dispute between Peter and Reese. It brings up memories from his childhood.
Bookmarked by PaxAm
27 Jun 2026