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    Ryland has a tattoo. So does Rocky. It's not the same thing, but it also really is.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    27 May 2026

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    Holden has a secret he’s held onto since he was a child. He’s learned to keep it in, to be a good son and a good man, a man who will marry a pretty girl and settle down with a family.

    Bill already has a pretty girl and a family, but he’s half dead inside, dying behind his white picket fence and polite smile.

    Long days on the road breed friendship, intimacy, and eventually, something more.

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    26 May 2026

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    It's after they start sharing the bed, Marty guesses, is when he'd gone and started thinking different.

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    20 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 17

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    Holden Ford's life is one shade of white after another: white apartment walls, neat white, iron pressed button-ups, dozens upon goddamn dozens of round, white pills that calm the anxious buzz that goes through him like an electrical current day after day.

    White cigarettes pinched between lips he can't stop staring at, white hair shorn like a soldier's, white t-shirts over thin boxer shorts.

    White upon white upon white.

    His hands are bloody with the dark, explicit thoughts that race through his mind, with the things he can't bear to say out loud. These perfect shades of white, of his life, are marred by this russet gore, this evidence of his revolting vulnerability.

    When Holden's panic disorder reaches its worst, darkest point, he learns that only blood satiates intimacy; that he is more than what he must be; and that he doesn't know who it is that looks back at him in the mirror.

    He is a person in the same way that they profile a serial killer; through implications gleaned from the minutiae, the trivial.

    If not a person, if only the implications...

    It begs the question: who, or what, is Holden Ford?

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    17 May 2026