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this is not enough (i am not enough) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.
Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”
“Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.
Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.
He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.
OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.
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- Part 2 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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Bookmarked by brain_stew
22 Jun 2026
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i was raised out in the cold (i was raised on little light) by coffeeinallcaps
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 Apr 2026
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No one would believe it now, but Ilya Rozanov was a shy kid, prone to tears. Small for his age. An easy target.
After his mother’s death, he threw himself into hockey. He hit a growth spurt. He started lifting weights, became big and strong. Not as big and strong as his older brother, but big enough to make Alexei and the other bullies think twice. Strong enough to fight back.
(Or: Five times Ilya has to go home to Russia, and one time he chooses to go home to Shane.)
This isn’t what Ilya had in mind when he figured they’d be spending most of their time at the cottage in bed.He throws his arm over his eyes and groans. “I am ruining our time together. I am ruining your time off.”
“No you’re not,” Shane says. “Are you kidding me? I’ve basically been fantasizing about this.”
Ilya lowers his arm. “About me puking all over your favorite place on earth?”
“No, you asshole. About taking care of you.”
Ilya stares at him.
Shane says, defensively, “What?”
“I fantasize about you fucking yourself on boring beige dildo,” Ilya says, voice cracking, “and you fantasize about me being sick at your cottage so you can take care of me?”
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Bookmarked by brain_stew
20 Jun 2026
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This is so soft and sweet. It felt very in character. Some angst and some funny moments too. This is a favorite for sure <3
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The Great Pretender by lady_st4rdus7
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Jun 2026
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Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.
The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.
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Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.Series
- Part 1 of star’s 5+1
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Bookmarked by brain_stew
12 Jun 2026
Bookmarker's Notes
Who put these fucking tears in my eyes?? This was so sweet yet also sad, although no character death actually takes place.
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Ilya Rozanov has dinner with the Hollanders now. Once a week at least, at Yuna's insistence because he turns into a young, innocent boy every time she speaks. He looks at her adoringly.
He watches David watch her.
David just watches his wife.
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or: david hollander vs grigori rozanov's terrible parenting- Language:
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Bookmarked by brain_stew
29 Apr 2026
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I love me some father/son David and Ilya bonding
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Operation Get Roz a SAP by dntat for Lanabean
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Apr 2026
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Bood: And what would this person need to get Roz to settle down?
Roz: must be most beautiful person you have ever seen
Roz: very funny but does not know they are funny
Roz: and suck dick like their life depends on itOr: The Centaurs know that Roz is sad, and probably a little lonely. So they do their best to set him up with someone who matches his specific list of requirements. What they don't know is that their captain has already found that person.