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  1. Public Bookmark 35

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    Phil has known so many versions of Dan across time, and he has loved them all in their own ways.

    But none of them was this one: his Dan, sprawled beside him in a Las Vegas hotel room two weeks after his twenty-first birthday, who is sharp and unsure and sometimes infuriating, who gives hickeys to his older self and then pretends it was nothing. This one, tonight, is the one Phil loves most of all.

    A canon-inspired time-travel AU featuring secrets, yearning, self-hatred, self-love, a three-way in Vegas, and Phil Lester's unwavering belief in the red string of fate.

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    07 May 2026

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    Chapter 5

  2. Public Bookmark 89

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    He looks like he does on screen, black emo hair a little like a very attractive bird’s nest, with yellow-checkered cat ears on his head, but unmistakably Phil. Dan is shocked, genuinely, that not everyone here falls head over heels for this man immediately. Surely they must. Surely they’re just doing a better job than Dan is at keeping it in. Maybe he’s not gay, maybe this is just what Phil does to people.

    “Hi,” Phil says. “You’ve got nice whiskers.”

    Dan chose the safety of a girlfriend over Phil, and now he meets Phil in real life for the first time at a YouTuber meetup. And for the first time. And for the first time. And for the- It's a time loop fic.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 9

  3. Public Bookmark 19

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    The AU where Phil stopped posting Youtube videos in the summer of 2009, before he ever knew who Dan was. Phil's life heads into a different direction that leads to the stable life he has at 35 years old. Phil is stuck in an unfulfilling relationship with a busy lawyer. Everything changes when Phil unknowingly inserts himself into a rookie lawyer, Dan Howell's, life. The wheels of fate that stopped moving in the summer of 2009 are in motion again and Phil sees what his life should have been like for all of these years.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 15

  4. Public Bookmark 28

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    Phil has loved film for his whole life. He loves the idea of making anything beautiful in the right light, from the right angle. He is finally getting ready for his first major movie, when just before filming begins, his film scorer drops out of the project. Scrambling to find a new musician who will be willing to work for such little pay on his low budget film, Phil finds Dan Howell, a talented aspiring musician in need of work with a complicated past and beautiful brown eyes.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    Chapter 17

  5. Public Bookmark 5

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    INT. PHIL'S BEDROOM - 3:34 AM

    A time capsule of early moments of youth, when the terrors and wonders of the future remain hidden, and yet all that exists at the present moment seems... well. Phil still can't believe Dan is really here.

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    31 May 2026