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    He rounded the corner into the gym, ready to chastise Ilya for not finishing his workout sooner, when he saw him mid-squat in the mirror wall to his right. He froze. What. The. Fuck. 

    Ilya was wearing Shane’s favorite shorts, which would almost be enough to stop him in his tracks on a normal day. But he was also wearing a Montreal Voyageurs jersey. With Shane’s name and number on it. Shane actually felt his mouth water, his breathing quicken, and his body tingle all at once. 

    He swallowed and started to say something, but stopped when Ilya said, “Hey, baby...” And then just returned to his workout.

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    Shane loves to see Ilya in #24 and Ilya loves to see Shane in #81!

    Slice of life chapters dropping in on these two being spicy and sweet! As they get more comfortable together, they become curious about new dynamics in their sex life— what if Shane likes to take charge? And what if Ilya really likes it? ✨

    Chapters 1 & 2 take place between HR and TLG. Chapter 3, 4, & 5 take place after TLG!

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov-Hollander woke up on the sixth anniversary of the day he told his husband he loved him for the first time, and thought: I want Shane to fuck me.

    Shane, tucked under his arm and snoring softly into his armpit, warbled on unaware.

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    29 May 2026

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    One shots from Shane and Ilya's time on the Centaurs.

    Technically in the Visions from the Future universe but can be read standalone.

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    28 May 2026

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    Nothing feels right or good. Not the weight of his pads or the glide of his skates over fresh ice. Not the crispness of the rink air or the roar of a sold out Montreal crowd. Not his teammates’ triumphant shouts when he sinks a goal or cool water in his throat after a hard workout or well wishing texts from his parents before every game. It’s all just… faded.

    Grey.

    Empty.

    Shane doesn’t know how to bring color back into his life. Not when he leeched it out himself with every step he took away from the only person who has ever truly, honestly seen him.

    • • • • •

    After Shane walks away, his life falls apart one piece at a time.

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    27 May 2026

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    Shane paused. Then, with deliberate slowness, he said, "Let me get this straight. You want to bottom... so you can chirp better?"

    "Well, it is not very straight, that is kind of point, yes?"

    Shane took a deep, long-suffering breath.

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    26 May 2026

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    “Ilya,” he breathes into Shane's open, slightly panting mouth. Shane jostles their position, pointing his thumb at his own chest in an exaggerated manner.

    “Shane,” he replies. Quietly, like it's a request, not a statement. Ilya's eyes gentle, and he kisses Shane's nose.

    “Shane.”

    Or: another "Shane stays post-tuna melt scene" fic.

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    20 May 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    10 May 2026

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    For a second, nothing happens. Just blinking, slow and disoriented. But still alive and still here.

    Shane feels something crack open in his chest so violently it almost takes him down with it.

    Ilya turns his head slightly. His eyes land on Shane and Shane knows, this is it. This is the moment, where it either comes back or it doesn't.

    "I know you," Ilya says.

    The relief hits Shane like a wrecking ball. Shane actually laughs, a broken, breathless sound as he drags a hand over his face.

    "Yeah," he says quickly. "Yeah, you do."

    or

    What does it mean to choose a life you don't remember?

    and it's just another unnecessary amnesia fic

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    09 May 2026

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    "And is like I said, very easy to do. You just lay back and let someone else do work. Could do it in my sleep, would not be problem at all for me to come hands-free.”

    Hollander scowled, full competitive personality shining through. “Prove it.”

    “Fine, I will,” Ilya snapped back.

    Hollander's eyes went wide, and so did Ilya's when he realized what he had promised. His words hung in the air between them, suddenly heavy with implication.

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    Ilya doesn't think switching with Hollander one time for the sake of settling a bet will change anything about their arrangement, and it certainly wouldn't make him discover anything about himself. Afterall, it would only be one time, right?

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    07 May 2026

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    When Shane stops answering his phone, Ilya drives to Montreal expecting irritation, maybe a fight, maybe another one of Shane’s ridiculous explanations

    Instead, he finds Shane dead in their bed.

    After the funeral, Ilya tries desperately to survive the grief, leaning on teammates, family, and the life they built together. Then Shane starts appearing in places he shouldn’t be, asking Ilya to do small, ordinary things that slowly begin erasing their shared history from existence.

    Ottawa disappears first.

    Then the cottage.

    Then the MLH.

    Then Shane himself.

    And somewhere beneath the unraveling nightmare waiting for him is the life Ilya Rozanov was supposed to have if he had never met Shane Hollander at all.

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    06 May 2026

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    Lily: 3852 Bayberry St. N. Millbridge, Vermont

    Jane: Did you mean to send that to me? What is it?

    Lily: Is half way
    Lily: between

    Jane: What? Between what?

    Lily: Between Montreal and Boston.

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    06 May 2026

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    “It was cruel,” Ilya murmurs, brushing the saltwater from Shane’s freckles with a careful thumb. “I was cruel. To both of us. And I’m sorry.”

    Shane breathes with him for a moment, both of them trying to pull themselves together, before he grumbles, “I don’t even remember why I brought that up.”

    “Because you want to be annoying in bed until I slap you,” Ilya reminds him patiently.

    “Oh. Right.”

    [Or: Shane and Ilya are very, very compatible.]

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    30 Apr 2026

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    Ilya shrugs and runs his hand from Shane’s waist down to his ass and back up. “But you are so good at it. What is English saying? Having it with science?”

    “Having it down to a science.”

    “Exactly. Some things come natural to you, yes? Doing your bottom prep stuff. Taking my cock. You are perfect bottom. Made to be bottom. You love to be bottom.”

    “I do. I love it.” Shane swallows, reminded of exactly where he is and what he’s doing, a cautiously confident smile on his face as he starts to ride more with his legs than his hips. “And you thought I would throw it all away for some Taco Bell.”

     

    OR; shane hollander's foolproof bottom prep routine and how his lovely boyfriend takes care of him

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    28 Apr 2026

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    "Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."

    "Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.

    "I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.

    "For what?"

    "It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."

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    19 Apr 2026

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    “The doctor said it’s retrograde amnesia. He doesn’t remember the game, or . . . any of the last few years, really. He remembers his draft, but not World Juniors the next year, so . . .” Pike shrugs helplessly.

    Mind racing, Ilya thinks through the math. Their second World Juniors had been in 2009, 8 years ago. That’s 8 years—or more—of Shane’s life, of Ilya’s role in it, just gone. 8 years of teasing texts and hotel room hookups, tuna melts and Tampa and 'I don’t think I can keep pretending I don’t like you anymore.'

    Blyat.

    . . .

    When Marleau's hit leaves Shane missing his memory of the last 8 years, Ilya chooses to walk away. After Shane unexpectedly trades to the Ottawa Centaurs three years later, they are thrust back into each other's lives. Ilya struggles against his feelings that never disappeared. And Shane? He's confused about why so many things about Ilya Rozanov, his years-long rival, feel so familiar...

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    17 Apr 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of Hollanov Fest 2026, collection
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane pulls back, carefully cradling Ilya’s face. “Maybe we shouldn’t.”

    “You don’t want to?” Ilya’s eyes are bottomless; swimming with grief. He says it like he really means, You don’t want me?

    “That isn’t what I mean,” Shane says gently, brushing his thumb over Ilya’s cheekbone. Ilya’s eyes flutter shut, as if being treated so tenderly causes him physical pain. Like he isn’t used to it. “You’re hurting. I don’t want you to regret it in the morning.” 

    Ilya’s eyes open. “I have never regretted a moment with you.”

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    Or: the missing hotel room scene in Florida after Shane comforts Ilya.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    “You broke up with her,” Ilya says, arms loosening against his chest.

    “No, she, uh—” Shane ducks his head, avoiding Ilya’s eyes. “We slept together. And she kind of … she didn’t confront me, I guess. But she talked to me. Kind of hinted that she thought I might not be…”

    “Into girls?” Ilya finishes for him.

    “Something like that.”

    “You denied it?” 

    “No, I— I told her. About me. About—us,” Shane’s head snaps up, a hand lifted in Ilya’s direction. “Not about us, us. That I’d been sleeping with someone. Another player. I didn’t tell her about you.”

    OR: Shane comes out to Rose and runs toward the safest pair of arms he knows: Ilya’s. 

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    08 Apr 2026

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    five times shane and ilya's friends have questions about gay sex -- and one time they wish they knew less.

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    the Centaurs are a wonderful team. accepting. kind. curious. it's that last one that has Shane wondering if he’d rather be back in montreal, hiding in the closet, than here, making up for the failures of the Canadian sexual education system.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Shane’s hands rest on Ilya’s shoulders like they often do and he lets out a long breath. “I'm sorry. I don’t know why I -”

    “Shh. Is okay. Just don’t run away.” Ilya catches his gaze and holds it. “I don’t want you to go.”

    For the second time that day, Shane nods and quietly says, “Okay.”

    or, Shane stays at Ilya's house rather than running away.

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    29 Mar 2026

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