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    "That’s his ‘out’, the pure brilliance of his strategy: it’s a ‘we could, perhaps… just joking… unless’. A childish choice, really, but desire rarely breeds the smartest ideas.


    It’s hasty, they’re both clearly rushing. There must be no time for either to think.

    The mackerel can’t retreat if he’s balls deep.

    And the slug won’t chicken out if he’s getting his brains fucked out.

    Simple maths, really.

    Or: Osamu Dazai thinks the best way to handle a noise complaint is to become the noise complaint.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    Chapter 1 smut

  2. Public Bookmark 4

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    “Osamu?”

    “Osamu. Wake up.”

    The tickling sensation of hair falling around his face.

    “Oi. I know you’re awake! GET UP!”

    Dazai cracks his eyes open, immediately being met with the sight of his very pissed boyfriend caging him onto the bed, a curtain of ginger hair falling around his head. The brunette’s eyes light up, and immediately tackles the other onto his back, Chuuya letting out a surprised yelp. “CHIBI!!!”

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    Soukoku fluff. Or is it?

    Idk this is my first fanfic and I can’t summarise

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    01 Jul 2026

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  3. Public Bookmark 27

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    Chuuya has always hated Osamu Dazai- Why wouldn’t he? He was the most annoying, ridiculous, irritatingly charming suicidal manic. He was the worse partner in the history of Port Mafia- Always dragging Chuuya into idiotic shenanigans and being stupid and dumb and THE WORST. So why did Chuuya begin to suspect that he didn’t just hate him… Or that maybe he didn’t hate him at all? Every night they spent together, dancing at bars or listening to music on the rooftop made him more and more sure that it had always been something more.

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    Osamu Dazai was in love- He had been in love with Chuuya Nakahara ever since the night of Oda Sakunosuke’s death. That night, Chuuya held him while he cried. That night, they both stopped pretending to be the cocky, ruthless mafioso and the charismatic, cunning partner. That night, Dazai fell in love- And he’s been trying to tell Chuuya ever since. Every night he spent wide awake was a night spend, silently loving the man that supposedly hated him.

    TW- Suicide mentions, graphic violence descriptions, blood, internalized homophobia, implied self harm (?), drinking, war/mafia, death, and dark humor.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    When world-famous violinist Dazai Osamu announces his early retirement, a part of him is sure he will never love music again. He’s in his twenties, but he’s already tired of everything.

    Meanwhile, up-and-coming frontman Nakahara Chuuya is everything Dazai is not: reckless, smug, and a rockstar.

    They’re total opposites.

    They could never fall in love, right?

    [Or: Violinist Dazai and Rockstar Chuuya do, indeed, fall in love.]
    Sketchy's art here!
    Russian translation here.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Dazai has a crush on the most popular boy in school, Chuuya Nakahara. Unfortunately, Chuuya has no idea that Dazai exists.

    That is, until they end up paired together for a weekend science competition and are forced to share a hotel room.

    From there, Dazai's whole world is turned upside down.

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