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    Shane Hollander spends the 2010 Prospect Cup Tournament in a small room, being questioned by police. He thinks that telling the truth will save him. Instead, he’s betrayed by his teammates and pushed to the forefront of a scandal that destroys his chances with any NHL team. Only one professional hockey league is willing to look the other way.

    Desperate to play, Shane Hollander signs a contract with the KHL, packs his things, and moves to Russia.

     

    (Or: As he grapples with a scandal, Shane gives up on the NHL and ends up playing on Ilya Rozanov’s KHL team in Moscow. Timeline compliant AU – we don’t know what Ilya was doing in 2010 before he was drafted, so it’s possible he spent some time in the KHL)

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    06 Jun 2026

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    “I was thinking about the honeymoon phase thing.”
    “Yes?” Ilya said.
    “I think it’s different for us. I don’t want us to be all blissful and then only start fighting when we’re back to barely seeing each other. I think it’s good if we figure things out now, when we have the time. Whatever needs figuring out. So we have a solid foundation going into the season. Sort of like training camp.”
    “So this means you will keep getting mad at me for things,” Ilya said.
    Shane smiled, rolled his eyes. “Yeah, exactly,” he said.
    “Good, I find it very hot,” Ilya said, and kissed him.

    An insecure over-thinker and a self-destructive thrill-seeker walk into a relationship.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Shane makes some changes to protect his privacy. People notice.
    *5+1 of Shane establishing his boundaries. AU where Shane and Ilya were never caught at the cottage.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire life being one half of something: the Hollander twins, the Double Dutch, hockey's golden brothers. Falling in love with Ilya Rozanov is the first thing that ever feels like it's his alone—right up until he watches Ilya kiss his twin.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Hollander's parents must be supportive and nice, if he's thinking of coming out to them. Ilya doesn't even dare to fantasize about coming out to his family. The closest he's come to that are the nightmares about being outed. He doesn't want to even think what that would entail for him. But he knows.

    Fuck Hollander. He even managed to make Ilya feel sorry for him. Because Ilya can't fathom how dreadful life would be without the option to choose a nice woman to learn to love, if circumstances ever got dire. But Hollander won't have to think of that anymore. Which is nice, of course. Ilya is not a monster. But fuck him.
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    OR: Shane Hollander comes out in 2012 and he's determined to prove he can be queer, Asian, and the best player in the league. Ilya Rozanov is none of those things. Except maybe the last one.

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    04 Jun 2026