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    Been waiting on that sunshine (I think I need that back) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    12 May 2026

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    “But we have always kissed, we -”

    “I know.” Shane says, face blushing crimson. “But like I said, I don’t want to do that anymore. We can still see each other, because I like what we do, but we have to keep that part out of it. Please.”

    Ilya breathes in and out. He tries to be rational. Shane’s requesting that something change in their arrangement. It should be a simple answer. Yes. Of course. If that’s a boundary he wants to set, then Ilya should obey it.

    But the feeling of loss is so overwhelming he can barely stomach it.

    or, after Vegas, Shane doesn't let Ilya kiss him anymore when they hook up. Ilya doesn't take it very well.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    If I lose you, darling, then I lose everything. by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    18 Apr 2026

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    "He didn’t want Ilya to know that he had driven all night. He would be worried. But there hadn’t really been another option. Shane had been too tense to sleep, too tense to breathe properly. Seeing Ilya would help him relax. He was always good at giving Shane what he needed. He would tease him first, of course.

    “Fucking relax, Hollander.”

    But he would. Relax. As soon as he had Ilya in his arms. His heart would stop hammering, his bones would stop vibrating, the rush in his ears would quiet. He knew it. He just needed to see him. Because he was fine. Ilya was fine.

    Ilya almost died. Ilya almost -"

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    A character study looking at how well Shane Hollander would deal with, and process, almost losing the love of his life.

    Spoiler alert: Not well.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    there may never next time be by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    01 Jun 2026

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    He figures Ilya would be pretty surprised if he showed up to his house out of the blue. Surprised enough to be put off, probably. Shane is way too bad of a liar to think of any plausible excuse. If this is really happening, if Shane is actually by some miracle getting another shot at this, then he’s going to have to play this smart. His impatience to see Ilya again will have to be tempered. He’s not sure how time travel works, but he has the sneaking suspicion that one wrong move could unravel everything.

    Ilya is alive.

    Just the thought of it is enough to make Shane crack his first smile in a year.

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    AU in which Ilya dies in the Centaurs' plane crash. A year later, careless with grief, Shane drives his car into a blizzard and wakes up in Boston, in 2016. When faced with the opportunity to do it right this time, and keep Ilya for good, Shane knows that every decision he makes will be crucial. It's terrifying, but Ilya once told him that he's brave. Now it's up to Shane to prove it.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    the fuckboy passport by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    16 May 2026

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    Ilya posts a casual video of himself covered in a necklace of hickeys given to him by his beautiful, freaky boyfriend. In an unfortunate turn of events, girls all over the world join forces to share the details and video evidence of their own sexual exploits with Russia’s pass-around party boy. Shane is not at all consumed by jealousy and absolutely does not fall into a spiral of competitive obsession over these events.

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    Or, 5 times Shane tries to be as good as every girl that Ilya’s ever been with, + 1 time Ilya shows him that he has always been better.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    you'll be mine (and I'll be yours) by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    10 Jan 2026

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    Ilya hums, playing the card he's been considering for this entire conversation. “We could make more interesting, yes? A bet.”

    “A bet,” Shane repeats, eyes flashing. “Like what?”

    The reporter cuts in. “What about wearing the other player’s jersey?”

    They both turn to her, and Shane says, “Like, the loser wears the winner’s jersey?”

    “Maybe at the next game in a couple of months?”

    “Is a good idea,” Ilya muses, nudging Shane’s elbow. “You will look better in my jersey than in Montreal jersey.”

    Shane makes a low noise, his eyes holding a bit of a spark when he looks back to Ilya. It’s what Ilya was hoping for—the tiniest crack in the mask. He can see a hint of exasperated affection around the corners of Shane’s eyes, a little bit of fire burning just beneath the surface. It sends a thrill down Ilya’s spine, and he wonders if Shane will be snarky when Ilya gets him naked tonight.

    “That’s not happening,” Shane replies, shaking his head. “Because you’re not winning.”

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    Ilya should have known better.

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    02 Jun 2026