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    just a random collection of small moments and ideas

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    So Ryland Grace will love Simon until the day he dies.

    And Ryland Grace will love Simon in the next life, and the one after that, and all the ones after that.

    And Ryland Grace will sit on an empty shore of a dead sea under a forgotten moon and watch Simon live a long, full life; loved and safe and happy and free, trails of ice crystals and moondust left in his wake as he chases the light of thousands of shining stars.

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    Three times Ryland Grace thought he was in love, and the one time when it was true.

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    30 May 2026

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    He’d thought, at first, that the pounding adrenaline and the feverish gratifying sensation of being straddled and hurt was bloodlust. The way his entire nervous system would tingle from a crack across the jaw, or an arm around his neck, folding him inwards. Trying to kill him.

    Bloodlust wasn’t the extent of it.

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    12 Nov 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 37

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    “Get it out of your system before Saturday if you don’t want a whole stadium to know what gets you off.”

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    Dress rehearsal before MCR Seattle. Frank has a lot of feelings about the execution hood.

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    28 Jul 2025

  4. Rec 13

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    They’re passing another exit, this one brightly lit and overcrowded with gas stations and fast food joints, and Vic can see the curve of Kellin’s throat illuminated blue and purple by neon lights, see them shift like stage lights as he swallows.

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    There's a two-hour drive between Seattle and Ridgefield. Vic rents a car.

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    18 Jul 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 13

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    Being backstage for somebody else’s set was like sitting in your friend’s kitchen while they cook dinner. Nobody else keeps their shit in exactly the places you do, so the whole operation looks uncanny-valley. Even Sirens had reorganized as the members turned over, and Vic used to be able to navigate their weird-ass setup blindfolded. That wasn’t a metaphor, by the way.

     

    The When We Were Young festival schedule lines up perfectly for Vic and Kellin to carry on their annual tradition of singing King for a Day together behaving like horny twenty-somethings backstage.

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    04 Jun 2025