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think twice (and come back for a third time) by lipsticktraces
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
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13 May 2026
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Public Displays of Affection by Theoz_wolf
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
12 May 2026
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"Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."
"Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.
"I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.
"For what?"
"It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."
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23 Apr 2026
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personal blue by laundry (lovesjar)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Jan 2026
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Now, he stares at the rivulets of water peeling down Ilya’s neck and chest, and he’s awed at being allowed to touch it all. When the world turned ugly and ice was no longer the safest place for Shane’s thoughts, there would always be this.
Ilya Rozanov, his own personal blue.
Series
- Part 2 of hard times
Bookmarked by astichulis
21 Apr 2026
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Public Bookmark 5163
Mystery Work
Part of OA Private
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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21 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander, a lonely and longing househusband, calls pool cleaning services at the beginning of summer.
Ilya Rozanov the pool boy shows up.
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21 Apr 2026