Voidflower

a vintage-style photograph of a jacob's sheep ram. the ram has four curved horns.



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    So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?

    “Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.

    You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.

    After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.

    (They definitely still try, though.)

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    03 Jun 2026

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    The best players, Stefan's mentor had told him, are like racehorses: highly strung, and easily spooked. Hollander was the best of the best. And his career - the challenge of working with him and his particular routines - had elevated Stefan's standing in the Honorable Siblinghood, so it was as much professional debt as favouritism that had Stefan taking a particular interest in Hollander, by the time he came out to the locker room. Stefan expected to be working with him until one or other of them retired. [...]
    If, after that, Hollander's skate laces were replaced before they started to wear thin, and if the new laces passed through the hands of at least two fully-sworn Senior or Very Senior Equipment Managers before they met his skates, that was within Stefan's discretion. He never even spoke of it, directly, to his team.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    He can’t tell Ilya though. He can’t tell Ilya that his team might not be right for Shane. That this perfect solution is making Shane a worse hockey player, a bad teammate.

    That maybe Shane Hollander of the Voyagers really was his full name. That Shane Hollander of the Centaurs might not exist.

    He can’t say that. He can’t ruin everything. He can’t dim the shine in Ilya’s eyes, the bounce in his step, the color in his cheeks he didn’t have the last few years.

    Ilya sacrificed hockey for their relationship for two years, played on a crappy team and watched Shane win. It’s Shane’s turn to sacrifice, to figure out how to make this work and let Ilya lead this time.

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    Transitions are hard for Shane. Joining his husband's team turns out not to be an exception to that rule.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    He can’t tell Ilya though. He can’t tell Ilya that his team might not be right for Shane. That this perfect solution is making Shane a worse hockey player, a bad teammate.

    That maybe Shane Hollander of the Voyagers really was his full name. That Shane Hollander of the Centaurs might not exist.

    He can’t say that. He can’t ruin everything. He can’t dim the shine in Ilya’s eyes, the bounce in his step, the color in his cheeks he didn’t have the last few years.

    Ilya sacrificed hockey for their relationship for two years, played on a crappy team and watched Shane win. It’s Shane’s turn to sacrifice, to figure out how to make this work and let Ilya lead this time.

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    Transitions are hard for Shane. Joining his husband's team turns out not to be an exception to that rule.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is stupid into Shane Hollander.

    It's the scariest thing he's ever experienced in his life.

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    01 Jun 2026