MayWilder



Recent works

Recent series

  1. Words:
    46,290
    Works:
    4
    Bookmarks:
    246
  2. Words:
    40,374
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    89
  3. Summary

    "All the time I feel I must justify my existence."

    Prince Charles

    Words:
    32,773
    Works:
    6
    Bookmarks:
    54
  4. Words:
    11,081
    Works:
    2
    Bookmarks:
    38
  5. Words:
    33,038
    Works:
    4
    Bookmarks:
    80

Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
    Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
    At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.

    June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
    He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.

    A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
    Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?

    What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    33,800
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    690
    Kudos:
    4,468
    Bookmarks:
    1,433
    Hits:
    49,571

    30 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Patience and love are the potent mix that makes devotion.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    12,268
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    375
    Kudos:
    1,728
    Bookmarks:
    125
    Hits:
    11,900

    08 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    @mensicehockey2k
    Hopefully Hollander and Rozanov make statements about this soon. Lots of young kids look up to these guys. Super disappointing if it’s true.
    11:58 AM ᐧ 18 Jan 2017 ᐧ 399K Views

    @starweavergia
    this is like the opposite of being told your parents are getting divorced #hollanovwedding
    11:12 AM ᐧ 18 Jan 2017 ᐧ 86K Views

    @rizzanov_official
    GOOD MORNING GIRLIES HOW ARE WE ALL FEELING TODAY #hollanovwedding #hollanovnation #hollanovontop
    11:09 AM ᐧ 18 Jan 2017 ᐧ 570K Views

    Shane and Ilya get drunk that night in Tampa and wake up married in Vegas.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    15,267
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    452
    Kudos:
    7,795
    Bookmarks:
    1,685
    Hits:
    67,926

    08 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    222,222
    Chapters:
    28/28
    Comments:
    17,639
    Kudos:
    45,500
    Bookmarks:
    17,688
    Hits:
    2,074,369

    16 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    “Is my favourite thing.” Ilya murmurs.

    The rain has started to slow down a little. Barely any lightning strikes anymore. Soon, the sky will clear.

    “What is?” Shane asks.

    Ilya brings their joined hands up to his face and presses a small, tired smile to the back of Shane’s hand. “You and me.”

    (or: they’re best friends who go on a roadtrip together.)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    40,755
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    400
    Kudos:
    5,124
    Bookmarks:
    2,264
    Hits:
    111,782

    29 Apr 2026