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    Shane and Ilya are different behind closed doors.
    A multi POV fic that allows other characters to get a glimpse behind the wall.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    "Hey, baby, look at me," Ilya tries. He grabs Shane's face and wipes the sweaty hair from his forehead. "Shane, please? Are you okay? What's your colour?"

    Shane's eyes drift towards Ilya slowly, until their gazes lock. Ilya stares into the depths of his eyes, searching for anything that shows that Shane is still in there somewhere, and that is when Shane snaps back into reality like he has been struck by lightning. His eyes widen as he sucks in a big sharp breath and starts pulling away, away, and away. Away from Ilya. He starts feverishly tugging at the restraints that are still holding his wrists firmly in place on the headboard. And now, he is no longer silent.

    Instead, Shane sobs.

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    While the whole "tying Shane up" thing sounds fun at first, it is not so fun anymore when Shane has a panic attack when trying it.
    Ilya finds out that something bad has happened to Shane in the past.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s boyfriend just couldn’t fuck him right, fortunately his ex could.

    So Shane invites his ex over to fuck him while his boyfriend watches and learns. It’s purely educational. Totally not about the unresolved feelings that they both don’t have

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    22 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya?” Shane said in that same dreamy, loopy voice as that morning. Ilya exhaled in a rush.

    “Shane,” he said, and wanted to sag against the glass with relief. “What happened? Is something wrong?”

    “Not! Any moooooooore.”

    Ilya swallowed. Shane hadn’t gotten any quieter in the past seven hours.

    “Why are you calling me? You need to be resting,” he said, and it sounded softer than he’d meant it to.

    “I forgot to tell you something. Important.

    “You should not be telling me anything, you should be—”

    “My cottage has really good water pressure,” Shane announced.

    Ilya stared out the window while a small plane taxied past.

    “What?”

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    Shane's cottage has a lot of amenities, and he needs to tell Ilya about all of them.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t understand it. He knows that he knows better than to be sitting here with himself, wallowing in this feeling. He should not be sitting with it. Should not be thinking it in the first place. Should not be smoking. He should be asleep with Shane, cradled in his husband’s touch and air and warmth.

    But even the warmth feels dulled lately, chilled to an aching distance from it, and Ilya hates himself for thinking this way.

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    Ilya has a depressive episode, and Shane keeps him from drifting.

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    30 Mar 2026