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    Everybody asks about the before; "Why did you do it?" "How did you do it?" "What were you thinking?" nobody really thinks about the after.
    Nobody thinks about the way you never expect to wake up, and when you do you feel that sense of dread and nausea kick in like never before, the urge to get up and out of bed never really winning over the feeling like a failure at something that should've been so easily done.

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    Evan Buckley wakes up after trying to end his life, and he's stuck in a numb state of not knowing what to do after, because he hadn't planned to fail. He'd planned to die.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    "Really, Peanut?" Buck asks as he catches himself and stands back up. It still takes him by surprise just how intense his cravings have been through the pregnancy. It's not just that he wants apple juice or licorice-wrapped sardines or Hawaiian pizza or whatever other odd hankering-of-the-week seems to hit him.

    It's like he needs it.

    (For the bingo square: sharing a blanket)

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    “Eddie, I—” Buck swallows hard, voice catching in his throat as Eddie’s cock slides against his, thick and warm and huge.

    And huge is not an exaggeration.

    And Buck knows he’s not lacking in that department. Hell, he’s been told more than once he’s a lot. He’s seen guys do double-takes in locker rooms, seen the way hookups have lit up when his pants came off or even a couple shy away at the thought of taking him all (which was fine, he’s good with his hands and his mouth, they both always still had a great time). He’s not shy about it—never had a reason to be. The nickname Firehose always had multiple meanings.

    So the fact that he’s currently realising now he’s the smaller one?

    That Eddie—his best friend, his newly minted boyfriend as of thirty minutes prior (holy shit!!), the guy who makes him feel seen in ways no one else ever has—is bigger than him?

    That throws him. Not in a bad way, not exactly. Just… surprising. Disorienting, in the kind of way that makes his brain short-circuit a little.

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    Eddie Diaz has a big dick. Buck is a little intimidated. Eddie makes it fit.

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    16 Sep 2025

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    Buck doesn’t think that if he were to say, “I’m in a bad place”, that anyone would turn him away. Really, he doesn’t. The 118 has too many good, kind people for that.

    But every time he wants to open his mouth, to say something, to reach out to Eddie or Bobby or Hen or Chim, he hears Eddie yelling, “you’re exhausting.”

    —you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting—

    So each day he does his job and he laughs and he jokes and he pretends he’s the care-free goofball he’s always been. And each day he packs away his bruises and his worries, takes them home to his empty loft with its quiet rooms, and licks his wounds in silence.

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    20 Sep 2025

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    “Didn’t know you were seeing someone.”

    Buck just laughs. Like, honest to god giggles. Eddie is stuck fighting off doubly massive waves of butterflies and confusion, all while Buck just gazes down at him.

    “That’s cute,” he hears Buck mumble, just before climbing into the truck, calling Eddie after him.

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    or, everyone knows eddie is dating buck except for eddie, literally.

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    20 Sep 2025

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