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    The coffee used to get cold. Before, when he would find every reason to linger around the kitchen counter, trading lazy kisses tasting of burnt coffee and mint toothpaste, stealing bites of breakfast sandwiches that didn’t fit with his diet during hockey season. He couldn’t help himself then. He lacked discipline and focus. But that was another lifetime. That was before. Shane was different now. He had to be.

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    Four years after the cottage, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly ended their relationship.

    Two years after their split, the shape of their lives is drastically different. Ilya is in New York married to Svetlana. Shane stayed behind in Montreal and is single. They keep their distance, only spending time in the summer when required as co-founders of The Irina Foundation.

    In 2023, Shane meets someone else. Someone perfect on paper, who offers to give Shane everything he’s ever wanted. Well, almost everything he’s ever wanted.

    Shane will face the ultimate decision. And he’ll have to ask himself one question: Is this enough?

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Shane could hear the crowd, loud as always in their home barn. It felt electric tonight. He didn't usually let the emotions of the occasion affect him, but after 22 years in the MLH, having accomplished everything he could do as a professional, tonight’s send-off was too much to push all the way down into that small compartment where he could hide all he felt.

    But Ilya–Shane felt physical pain in his chest every time he allowed himself to think his name. Their careers still forever tied together until Ilya’s retirement a few years ago. In the quietest of times, Shane could admit he shouldn’t have felt lonely at the top because Ilya was always right there with him. Sometimes he took solace in that, sometimes it brought pain so blinding he couldn’t breathe.

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    Shane Hollander retires from the MLH a few seasons after Ilya. They haven't actually spoken since the day Shane left in Boston. When Ilya is invited to participate in Shane's retirement ceremony, will they take the opportunity to confront the feelings they have long buried but kept sacred or are they still just two stars passing in the night?

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    12 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 62

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    After divorce and retirement, Ilya Rozanov finds himself back in Shane Hollander's orbit. It's been thirteen years since they've spoken.

    Ilya finds ways to stay.

    Shane finds ways to let him.

    Or.

    Pathetic Divorced Man Ilya Rozanov spends an increasing amount of time with his ex.

    title from even now by william fitzsimmons

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    12 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 47

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire life planning to be perfect.

    Perfect hockey player. Perfect son. Perfect husband.

    Coming out and getting engaged on draft night was part of the plan. His entire life falling apart and completely spiraling a year later wasn’t.

    Neither was Ilya Rozanov somehow being there for every terrible part of it.
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    Or the one where Shane is a happy, yet oblivious married man.

    And Ilya Rozanov keeps noticing things he shouldn’t.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    "Well, then we're going to have to add her to the Raiders' WAGs group," Connor pointed out, tapping his phone against the palm of his hand. "Anyway, what's her name?"

    Ilya swallowed hard. He wanted so badly to tell the truth.

    "Jane," he replied, the lie sliding easily but leaving a bitter taste on his lips.

    "Jane. Classic name. Cool," Cliff approved with a nod. "So, is she hot? I know you're all paranoid about privacy and won't show a picture, but, fuck, tell us at least something about the girl!"

    The "girl" was gorgeous. The most beautiful person Ilya had ever seen in his entire life. The owner of the best laugh, the warmest and firmest hug, the hands that gave the best head scratches. The man with the most addictive kisses, a breathtakingly sculpted body, expressive brown eyes, and, above all, the most wonderful freckles in the world.

    "She has freckles," Ilya murmured, unable to prevent a goofy, lovestruck smile from breaking through his unbothered macho facade.

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