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   i've been seeing ghosts again by Pale_Blue

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Teen And Up Audiences
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   22 Jun 2026

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   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • Galina Molchalina
   • Luca Haas
   • Brandon Wiebe
   • Zane Boodram
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Post-Episode: s01e06 The Cottage (Heated Rivalry)
   • Post-Book 2: Heated Rivalry (Game Changers)
   • Ottawa Centaurs (Game Changers)
   • Ottawa Centaurs Player Ilya Rozanov
   • Mentioned Irina Rozanova
   • Sad
   • Angst
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Hockey Player Ilya Rozanov
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Therapy
   • Supportive David Hollander and Yuna Hollander
   • Protective Yuna Hollander
   • Medication
   • Winter
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Shane Hollander Takes Care of Ilya Rozanov
   • Or he tried to
   • Sort Of
   • the whole Hollander family is doing their best
   • and so is Ilya
   • Mental Breakdown
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Smoking
   • Drinking
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Good Parent David Hollander
   • David Hollander and Yuna Hollander Love Ilya Rozanov
   • Supportive David Hollander
   • Passive Suicidality
   • Intrusive Thoughts
   • Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Mentioned Scott Hunter (Game Changers)
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Player Shane Hollander
   • Implied/Referenced Sex
   • Past Ilya Rozanov/Sasha | Ilya Rozanov's Coach's Son
   • Ilya Rozanov's Necklace
   • Ilya rozanov's sad childhood
   • Mentioned Grigori Rozanov
   • Childhood Trauma
   • Irina Rozanova's Suicide
   • Good Parenting

   Summary

   Following the move to Ottawa, Ilya is struggling to keep his head above water. The Centaurs seem incapable of winning, his house is still half-unpacked at best, and Shane is two hours away in Montreal. After months of struggling alone, Ilya unexpectedly shows up at the Hollanders’ house one night, terrified of his own thoughts.

   In the months that follow, Ilya hits low after low, struggling with his newly-diagnosed depression. David and Yuna do their best to be there for him while distance is still keeping Shane and Ilya apart.

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