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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as an alternate for freestyle swim events.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “No offense,” Cliff says, bluntly, “But I’ve never seen you before. If you’re Rozy’s friend, then why haven’t we ever met you? I don’t think- I’ve never even heard your name before.”
    He’s not prepared for the twist of grief, an expression so wild and an ache so deep Cliff almost recoils– before Shane’s face smooths out again and he returns to looking empty.
    “It’s complicated,” he says, finally.

    When Rozy takes a hard hit in Montreal and doesn’t get back up, Cliff expects he’ll be the only one in the waiting room.
    He isn’t.

    Or: cliff marleau has 2.5 confusing conversations, witnesses a generational crashout, and tries his best; not in that particular order.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Maybe before, Shane would get jealous. Jealous every time Ilya mentioned Svetlana even after he knew better, jealous of every tabloid photo of Ilya with yet another woman at some club. Not that Shane was ever looking. Not that Shane let himself think that he cared.

    Now, Shane cares a little too much. He cares so much, so wholly and so wildly sometimes that it scares him. He loves Ilya, and part of loving someone means trusting them too. Shane trusts Ilya with every fiber of his heart and his soul.

    Ilya’s hot new physical therapist, maybe not so much.

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    Or, Shane gets jealous. Maybe. Just a little.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    "No, it's okay, it's not that big of a secret or anything now, I guess. The worst part was pretending I did not like him, like, even as a friend. And it took so much to accept that, god."

    "Ilya partied a lot those years, if we listen to the rumors."

    Ilya raises his hands. "Hey, I was young and stupid."

    Shane looks at both of them confused for a moment. "Ah, no, no, I was the difficult one." Three heads point at him violently. Shane furrows his brow, confused. "What?"

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Marlow: UHHHH
    Connors: GOOD LORD
    Carmichael: WHAT THE HELL CAP?
    Ilya: Oops
    Ilya: Wrong chat
    Ilya: Obviously
    Ilya: You’re welcome though 😏

    Or: A handful of times Shane and Ilya accidentally send sexts to a group chat, +1 time they sext in a group chat on purpose

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    18 Jun 2026