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    Shane had come around on the idea of Ilya spitting on his food and in his drinks the second he realised that it was going to become a theme. The immediate gut reaction of arousal, lead fairly quickly into a private spiral of shame before looping back around to a deep wanting again. The whole thought process had occurred in roughly under 5 minutes. But knowing you liked your husband spitting on everything and asking for it were two completely different things. Shane thought about it a lot, practiced how he would bring it up in conversation in his head and tried to give small hints to Ilya that he would be open to trying it again sometime. Eventually, he resigned himself to wait, he knew Ilya well enough to trust he would handle it.

    Or: the five times Ilya spits on Shane's food/drink and one time Shane spits back

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    10 Jun 2026

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    "The joke had been: Rozanov was so drunk he flirted with me at a party while I was wearing a wig. That story was over. The story now was: me and Rozanov made out at a party and he thought I was a girl."

    Or: at a halloween party, Ilya Rozanov mistakes his rookie rival for a pretty girl named Jane.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    C7

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    Ilya wondered if his heart was still beating in his chest. Ilya spoke words to Galina that did not resonate with him. He spewed bullshit and half lies and assured, “No, no thoughts for a while. They’ve been going away,” even though they were the only thing that echoed through his mind with each beat of his pulse. Ilya was dying. Slowly. With every breath. Either that, or going insane. Probably, most likely, insane. But above all, Ilya was lonely, and could not take the silence anymore.

    Ilya, 3:52 PM: This is the worst thing you have ever done to me, Shane Hollander.

    He felt so pathetic. Begging on his hands and knees for love. He wondered what he had done in a past life to constantly be pleading to god for any kind of love.

     

    Ilya Rozanov sustained a bad injury late last season that he just can't seem to shake. He feels himself start to slowly unravel, unable to face the fact that the one thing he has always been able to hold on to may not be his at all anymore. As his performance declines, his mental health begins to take a tumble with it.

    Set after the long game, where Ilya needs therapy, is in denial, and at war with himself.

    Title inspired from song Silver Spoon by Erin Lecount

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Contrary to popular belief, J.J. and Shane shared rooms on roadies just as much as Hayden and Shane did. Not that it mattered to fangirls online, who'd rather focus on Hayden's awkward side hugs with Shane as "proof" of their illicit gay relationship, and not the fact that the same instagram dump features Shane sitting in J.J.'s lap for half the photos.

    J.J. is not salty about this. He loves the gays. He wants gay fans. He has gay fans. He simply wants to understand, academically, why Hayden "three kids and a wife" Pike reads as the gay one when J.J. is right there looking the way he looks.

    Or: J.J. confirms something about Shane. Then he learns something else. He handles it. (Mostly.)

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    07 Jun 2026

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    They may not have any idea how to do it, but there’s no way in hell the Montreal Metros are going to risk losing their Captain to a more accepting team. Full of determination, grit, open hearts, and absolutely no savvy, this team is going to learn how to be allies, come hell or high water.


    Hayden: did anyone do the optional inclusivity training last season?
    J.J. Boizeau: no
    Lawrence Olsson: no
    Gilbert Comeau: no
    Petro Andropov: no
    Matty Wilson: no
    Cam Stedlund: no
    Albert Schneider: no
    Aleks Miitka: no
    Georges Gagnon: no
    Patrice Drapeau: no
    Hayden: excellent, we’re nailing this so far

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