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Biz has never thought of himself as the marrying kind. But lately he can't stop thinking what it'd be like to see his ring on Taylor's finger--or Taylor's on his. He feels kind of stupid for even considering it, though. As long as he's in Arizona, it wouldn't make that much practical difference for him.
Even if they were married legally somewhere, it still wouldn't count here. And it's not like standing up in front of witnesses is going to change what he feels for Taylor. He's still the guy Biz wants badly enough to have stayed faithful for through one lockout-shortened season and one full one when they were halfway across the country from each other. He's still the best friend Biz has out of bed, too.
He may not be the marrying kind, but based on prior evidence, Taylor is, though. Although just because he was ready to marry Carly doesn't automatically mean he wants to go there with Biz. Marriage licenses are a public document, after all, and they're still not really out. Doaner and a few of the other Phoenix vets Biz trusts not to run their mouths know about them, he's been introduced to a couple of Taylor's teammates as his partner, and Taylor's brothers are in the loop, but they still haven't told either set of parents.
Biz suspects his parents are probably going to take it better than Taylor's if they ever do--Taylor definitely doesn't have the kind of rep that Biz does. Knowing your son's seriously involved with a guy is one thing, having that guy be BizNasty adds a whole new set of issues. And much as he hates to think it, all that baggage may be enough to take marriage off the table for Taylor even if he's more than happy being the guy Biz settled down for as much as he's ever going to.
Biz tends to laugh a little inside when guys throw some homophobia in with their chirps now, but he doesn't know if Taylor would be as okay with the heightened level of that kind of bullshit they'd probably get if they did get married or even if they didn't but they were publicly out. He figures so what? if some asshole calls him a cocksucker or a faggot. He still doesn't think of himself as gay, but he hasn't done more than flirt with anybody but Taylor in forever, and Taylor's definitely got a dick that he likes to suck on a fairly regular basis. If he has to pick a label, he's going with bi, but he'd rather just be "the guy Taylor Pyatt's seeing". Or given his thoughts lately, "the guy Taylor's married to." He may want the ring, but thinking of himself or Taylor as a "husband" just sounds weird.
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