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‘Male Omegas are still suffering from sub-gender discrimination in South Korea’
‘Twink Male Omega loves sucking on big Alpha knot’
‘Heat crazed Male Omega enjoys getting pounded by his 3 Alpha Stepbrothers’
These were the first three search results Donghyuck got shown after typing ‘Male Omega’ into his search bar.
Nothing like ‘How to deal with Heats as a Male Omega’ or at least a Wikipedia article. No, it was either concerned news articles or straight up porn.
After browsing the web for what felt like hours, Donghyuck had gathered the following information:
- Around 0,2 % of the world’s population are Male Omegas, that’s even less than, for example, identical twins.
- Male Omega’s experience Heat on average more often than female Omegas. Around every 3 months, compared to 4 months for females.
- Male Omega’s, maybe because they are so rare, are currently placed somewhere between the 1st and the 4th spot on the list of most commonly searched terms on various porn sides.
- And also. No one seems to know jack shit about Male Omegas, or is concerned with any of their issues, as long as they can’t be posted on PornHub.
Heat had caught Donghyuck by surprise, as it probably did for most people and especially boys, who had always assumed, and been validated in this assumption, that they would be Alphas.
As bad as Donghyuck felt his luck had treated him, at least he was at home with his siblings when it happened. His little brothers were in shock and couldn’t comprehend what was happening to him, while his sister guided a dizzy and scared Donghyuck into his room.
Afterwards, he had felt as if the Heat had burned him down in its raging thorns of fire and left barely anything familiar behind. Everything he had thought he knew about himself was suddenly surrounded by an air of uncertainty. Who even was he?
If you asked people on the streets that question they would tell you, that he is Lee Haechan a member of NCT, that he could sing well, dance well, was funny,…
Haechan currently seemed like an abstract concept to him.
Sure, there had always been a difference between who Lee Donghyuck was and what he showed the world when stepping on stage as Haechan. The disparity had never been so severe that he had problems to switch from one to the other or merge them together just for a while, but now it seemed like he could not get a hold of Haechan, as if Haechan had left him behind, sitting all alone in his childhood bed.
In two days, he would have to return to Seoul, to begin preparations for the new Dream album and he had never felt less enthusiastic about this prospect.
Donghyuck was grateful that his mother was a loud, self-assured and outspoken woman. She was an Omega herself and after his Heat was over, she went straight into his room clapped her hands and said “Get up sweetie, we’re gonna get you suppressants and some scent-blockers, and then let’s hear what the doctor has to say.”
The doctor didn’t have a whole lot to say, aside of “That’s interesting.” or “I have never actually met a male omega before.” or “Extraordinary, really extraordinary.”
He ended up prescribing Donghyuck the strongest scent blockers they had, as well as heat suppressants and contraceptive pills.
“Well, if at any point in time, there would have been a reason, to do a whole body check up on you. We could have known earlier that you have a functioning womb, but then with males you never really exp….”
He stopped when he saw Donghyuck’s sour expression.
They had all agreed that it would be better for Donghyuck to pretend that he presented as a Beta. His mother’s reasoning was his safety, his doctor was concerned about his public reputation, but Donghyuck’s main concern was his group members. He wasn’t necessarily worried that they wouldn’t accept him or that they would harass him or anything like that. He just already saw Mark Lee stumbling over his own feet, thinking he had to treat him some kind of way, because he was an Omega.
The other factor that convinced Donghyuck to become a Beta, was finding all those Male Omega porn. A lot of porn was in itself degrading to Omegas and women in general, two terms that meant the same thing to Donghyuck just a few days ago, but searching the Male Omega tag was truly disturbing. It was all violence, forced submission, rape fantasies. He discovered that many Alphas found the thought of fucking a Male Omega extremely appealing.
Why? Well, according to the web:
‘It’s just so hot to have a MAN submit to you like that, for me it’s really the ultimate power fantasy.’
‘Would you date a Male Omega?’
‘Fuck no’
Of course he wondered to himself, if his group members watch this kind of stuff, if they got off to it, and if so, what it would mean for him, if he told them that he was in fact one of those slutty male omega whores, always searching for a new knot to fill them up.
In the end, he decided that he did not want to find out, what exactly they thought.
Coming out to the general public was even less of an option. There was not one Male Omega celebrity in South Korea and even in the West, he could only find one Canadian guy, who played a Male Omega in an American sitcom.
He had hoped that watching the show would answer some of his questions concerning this whole ordeal, but it ended up just being a hoax. The Omega was only part of the show, so they could make fun of him being a slutty man, without feeling guilty about it. That laugh track was still deeply burned into Donghyuck's brain.
Donghyuck didn’t really feel like a knot hungry bimbo at all. Even during his Heat, as painfully horny he may have been, he didn’t lose control. He was in pain yes, but he knew what he was doing when he decided to try putting a marker up his hole an immediately regretted it, afterwards, spending like 30 minutes on getting it out of him again.
That might have been a stupid and embarrassing decision, made with a very horny brain, but would he have been unable to say no to something he truly didn’t want?
He tried to come up with the least sexy scenario he could imagine, which was, Lee Sooman coming into his room and calling him his ‘pretty omega slut’, Donghyuck nearly screamed in fear. No, he would have definitely been able to say no to that.
It’s all lies. Was the conclusion he finally came to. He was not some idiot slave to his biology. In fact, aside of his smell, nothing had actually changed, not his body, not his mind, not his desires.
Omegas were always portrayed in the media as having an automatic motherly instinct and a submissive, caring personality. Only now, that he was an Omega himself, he realized, that it was all just propaganda, made to be internalized by little future Omega girls so they wouldn’t question why they get payed less, why their work is less valued or why so many people did not respect their opinions.
Fuck that. Donghyuck was quite frankly not prepared to live like that. He had been barely prepared to not be an Alpha, least of all a fucking Omega. So in the end, he decided on the safe route of becoming a Beta, to protect his body and mind from being eaten by the cruel media landscape of conservative South Korea.
“Really you are a Beta? I could have sworn that you would be an Alpha, you know?”
Said Mark Lee, keeping up with his tendency to always say the wrong thing in the absolutely wrong moment.
“Being an Alpha only made you more stupid, so I decided to nope out and keep my brain cells instead.”
Okay, Donghyuck might be a little harsh on Mark, but he really didn’t want to listen to the other boy’s stupid opinions. He did in fact have other problems, than listening to Mark Lee awkwardly, stumbling through his sentences.
“Congratulations Haechan.” Jeno said and gave him a handshake, from Renjun, Jisung and Chenle he even got a hug, only Jaemin was acting weird.
He congratulated him to his presentation with a forced smile, but couldn’t leave fast enough afterwards. Apparently, suddenly getting a severe headache.
“His Rut again?” Donghyuck asked.
Jaemin had the worst Ruts within their entire group, they always lasted at least a whole week and usually left him irritated, tired and absolutely drained of any of his usual energy.
It played into Donghyuck’s cards that NCT, had Rut breaks every 3 months. Everyone used suppressants to time their Ruts to fall into the same 10 day period, usually before and after an album promotion.
It used to be just 5 days, but since Jaemin presented, they had to double the time, a fact the other quite openly resented.
For the Betas that usually mend, they either went home to see their families or they had some kind of schedule. Since Donghyuck was ‘too young’ to be properly promoted, he usually got the time off. Of course this was quite the fortunate turn of events now.
After their break, everyone came back happy and well rested, ready to start preparing for a new promotion cycle. Well, everyone aside of Jaemin that is.
“Yes. 9 days of Rut, can you imagine?” Renjun answers, making the Alphas in the room shudder.
“He also got scolded by our manager for absolutely destroying his Rut room.”
Jeno throws in.
Indeed, Jaemin was known within their group for rather violent Ruts, which was the reason he was banned from staying in his own room during them. The last time he did, he utterly demolished his laptop and bedding. This was rather weird, since outside of Rut, Jaemin was probably the least violent or angry Alpha one could imagine.
“Poor Jaemin”, Jisung just says and that’s how Donghyuck’s fake sub-gender revelation went over, absolute unexceptional.
5 months later, Donghyuck had gotten used to waking up incredibly early in the morning to swallow his scent blockers and his heat suppressors AND his contraception pills AND rubbing scent-blocker cream all over his body. It was annoying as hell yes, but he could just go to sleep again straight afterwards.
He still spends his nights gaming with Jeno, his days practicing, or bullying Mark.
His group members fully accepting him as a Beta.
For him, surprisingly, nothing much had changed at all. Even his last Heat was fairly tame. He had bought himself a knotting toy and actually really enjoyed the time up until his 6th orgasm. Then it had become rather annoying, since he was horny, but also too tired to really deal with it. Luckily his Heat had passed in three days without any further issues.
The fact, that he was inserting things into his body still freaked him out pretty often. This desire being totally new to him, and the part of his brain still branded by internalized misogyny, often screamed at him to stop this humiliating action right this moment. He had been working on that though, and figuring out how prostate orgasms work had been quite fulfilling, in the whole sense of the word.
Only two things were still bothering him daily.
The first, was just the general stance of Omega Rights is this country.
Alphas apparently thought Omegas and their problems were a non-issue.
He did not believe this would change any time soon, since there were currently only 4 Omega representatives in parliament!
This whole topic had occupied him so much, that he even went to his ex-girlfriend and apologized to her, for saying ‘Yes, that’s all shit, but see, at least you don’t have to join the military.’
She had been majorly annoyed by him back then and he finally understood why. Well, Karma hits hard sometimes.
The second thing that bothered him was Na Jaemin.
A few days ago, they had all been relaxing on the sofa in the Dream dorm, watching a movie. Donghyuck had been bored, since they were watching some artsy shit Jisung wanted to see and of course he had wanted to annoy someone.
Unfortunately, Mark was asleep and Jeno and Renjun too far away, so he decided it was time to gift Jaemin with his attention. When he went to crawl into Jaemin’s space the other became suddenly startled and nearly jumped away from him.
“Why do you smell so much like Omega?”
Donghyuck stomach had dropped.
“What do you mean?”
He asked carefully, keeping eye contact with Jaemin to seem more confident than he actually felt.
“I don’t know, you just smell like Omega.”
Suddenly Jeno was next to him, smelling him.
“Huh? Haechan doesn’t smell like Omega. He smells the same as always roses and lychee”
These words flooded Donghyuck’s body with relief, but it also scared him that for some reason Jaemin seemed to be able to smell his Omega scent on him.
“Maybe you’re just smelling Karina?” he asked.
“You’re hooking up with Karina again? I thought you were done for forever? That’s what you said last time.”
Renjun peaked up.
In fact, he had only met Karina once in recent times and that was to apologize to her two weeks ago.
“We just talked about stuff.” He shrugged, trying to end the conversation by acting as if he wanted to pay attention to the shitty indie movie.
Renjun frowned at him, but didn’t ask any further questions.
Jaemin somehow being able to smell him wasn’t the only problem. Donghyuck also smelled Jaemin, and the boy’s scent did something to him, that no other Alpha scent in their group had the power to do. It made him fucking horny.
Usually, for example, Mark’s or Jeno’s scent would just feel safe to him. They were his closest Alpha friends after all, and they smelled good, sure, but in a comforting way. Renjun who was a Beta was even more comforting. He loved pressing his nose into Renjun’s nape and feeling all soft and cosy afterwards. Chenle and Jisung hadn’t presented yet and didn’t really smell like anything aside of aftershave and sweat.
But Jaemin, Jaemin’s scent made him shudder whenever the other came too close to him during dance practice. It had embarrassingly even made him hard once, leading to him jerking off into SM’s third floor bathroom toilet.
The thing was, that Donghyuck was under the strong assumption, that he wasn’t the only one dealing with scent related problems. Since he had come back after his presentation, Jaemin had suffered even more under his Ruts. He experienced constant Rut symptoms, even though he was on suppressants, which was really strange. He constantly missed practices and even a few of their performances.
Additionally, he was much more irritable than usual and talked so little, during their Instagram Lives, that even their fans had become worried.
Jaemin also reacted in weird ways, when Donghyuck got too close to him, stepping away from him in lightning speed and sometimes even leaving the room entirely.
He was acting so out of character that all of them were concerned. Most of all Donghyuck, since he assumed that he, or his scent, were the instigators to these problems and he had no clue what to do about it.
It took him two months before he finally decided to ask for help. They had been practicing their special show performance for only an hour, when Jaemin suddenly just got up and basically run out of the room. The other’s throwing worried glances at each other.
It made Donghyuck yet again realize, that this whole fiasco had to stop.
“Renjun-ah!” Donghyuck gestures for the smaller boy to follow him. “Let’s go look for Jaemin.”
Uncharacteristically for Renjun, he went after him without any further arguing.
When he pulled Renjun into an empty practice room, the other just looks at him confused.
“I don’t think Jae….”
“I think I’m responsible for Jaemin’s Ruts getting worse.” He blurts out.
Renjun cocks is head at him, frowning, seemingly even more confused than before.
“Why would you be responsible for his Ruts getting worse? Did you mess with his suppressants or something?” He pressed his eyes together as if to properly examine Donghyuck’s face, looking to find guilt somewhere.
“I would never…”
Donghyuck says, slightly offended that this was the first thing the other boy could come up with.
“I know you wouldn’t but…” “I am an Omega.”
He blurts out yet again, using his favorite technique of getting difficult topics out of the way as fast and painless as possible.
Renjun just looks at him, searching for signs of dishonesty in his face. It made Donghyuck feel small, but he kept eye contact with the other, pulling his shield up to protect himself, daring the other to say something out of line.
“How are… Since when do you- I mean, what?
Renjun finally stutters out.
He explains his situation to Renjun, keeping all the details about his Omega presentation as short as humanly possible, and then went on to describe all the changes in Jaemin he had witnessed over the recent weeks, trying to not sound worried, rather more annoyed at the other, for reacting to him in that way.
Afterwards, Renjun seems to thoughtfully consider his words. Even though Donghyuck had tried to avoid it at any cost, Renjun’s eyes had gone soft during his rant. He tried to take Donghyuck’s hand to comfortingly rub it, but the boy pulled away.
“So you think that Jaemin’s body is telling him, that you two are mates and that’s the reason his Rut never really goes away?”
Renjun asked him softly.
Donghyuck lets out a small huff and lets himself sink to the ground, leaning his head back against the awfully white wall.
“I don’t think it’s that deep.”
In fact, he had not thought about the deeper cause of Jaemin’s reaction to him at all.
“What would that mean, if Jaemin’s Alpha thinks I’m his mate?” He asks carefully, trying to not sound bothered.
“In general it just means that you two are genetically and sexually compatible.”
The other boy concluded, making Donghyuck frown.
“How common is that?”
“I don’t know. It happens. I mean it’s not a daily occurrence, but it also isn’t super rare. It’s not as if you are just compatible with one person on earth.”
Donghyuck nodded, he knew the K-Drama version of finding once mate and he knew the porn version, he assumed the truth lies somewhere in the middle.
“And what do I do now?”
Renjun looked at him sympathetically and Donghyuck turned his head away from him.
“I can’t really tell you. You either don’t do anything, which Haechan-ah I would totally understand if that’s what you want to do, you don’t own Jaemin anything.”
“Thanks.” He says drily.
“The other options would be, to either pursue him as a mate, or you just sleep with him to maybe get all of this out of his system. I am not sure if it works like that tough. It depends on how you feel about him, you know?”
Donghyuck hates this. He buries his head in his hands and questions himself. How does he feel about Na Jaemin?
Well, if that isn’t a great question.
A few points towards Jaemin:
1. Donghyuck had always felt attracted to Jaemin (but who doesn’t? Jaemin is beautiful after all.)
2. Jaemin was the reason Donghyuck had known he wasn’t completely straight from a very, very young age.
3. Jaemin and Donghyuck had always budded heats, to the point where they got into some physical altercations when they were younger.
4. Donghyuck’s and Jaemin’s friendship was weird in the sense, that there had always been this line between them, none of them dared to cross. They could be casually hanging out, just playing games or joking around and suddenly one of them would say something too personal, too out of line. That would cause the alarm bells in Donghyuck’s head to go off, telling him to run and that’s what he usually did.
So what was he supposed to do now?
“I have to think about it.” He concludes to Renjun.
The other nods comfortingly padding Donghyuck’s head, with him allowing it reluctantly.
“Take your time Hyuck.”
“Thank you midget.” He says sarcastically.
He was truly thankful to Renjun, who was, as small and angry he may seem sometimes, the best of them all. Renjun’s empathy crashed in waves into Donghyuck’s body and he had not known how desperately he had needed it until now.
Renjun just shook his head at him, faking annoyance.
Donghyuck quarreled with himself for quite a while.
He saw Jaemin suffering, but he was also scared. Could he trust Jaemin to keep his identity a secret?
The answer was a resounding yes, he trusted Jaemin in that sense. He knew the other was a good person and would never go behind his back.
Spending a Rut with an Alpha was what actually scared him. He knew he couldn’t do what Male Omegas in porn did, he couldn’t and he wouldn’t, but would Jaemin expect him to be submissive? To beg for his cock? Would Jaemin expect to be allowed to chock him, to beat him, to call him a slut?
If he did, Donghyuck knew that he could not go through with this. It wasn’t only about his ego (and he has a huge ego). No, he couldn’t bear to be treated like that, he desired nothing more than praise and recognition, being put down like that would kill him inside.
Another area to worry about was the violence of Jaemin’s Ruts. He had read online that Alphas can’t control themselves during their Ruts, that they could just go berserk. Of course he questioned if that wasn’t just a point Alphas argued, so they got a free pass to sexually harass or even rape Omegas. It was a defence that came up quite frequently in court rooms, and more often than not, let to the Alpha going free.
On public forums he had read that an Omega’s scent actually had the opposite effect on Alphas and calmed them down, much more than causing a loss of control. He would have to talk about that with Jaemin if he decided he would talk to the other at all.
In the end, the last straw was, seeing Jaemin sit on their practice room floor, after a few hours of just light workout, looking as if he had died three times and was now nothing but a living corpse.
Donghyuck knew he had to act, so he shut his eyes, spoke some encouraging words towards himself and went up to the other, causing him to become all tense.
It was weird that Jaemin seemed so put off by Donghyuck’s scent, when Donghyuck just wanted to breath in more and more of Jaemin’s.
“Can we talk?” Donghyuck asks him, sounding much more serious than was intended.
“Go ahead.” Jaemin frowns at him, obviously not in the mood for the usual Lee Haechan show.
“Alone?” He asks.
Jaemin seems to hesitate, looking at the others, finally giving him a small annoyed nod and getting up from the floor.
He silently followed Donghyuck into the empty practice room, in which he had already reviled his omeganess to Renjun. Donghyuck shut the door behind them, after Jaemin had left it standing wide open.
Afterwards, they just stood there. Donghyuck didn’t really know how to start this conversation, until Jaemin broke the silence.
“So?” He asks.
“You seem tense around me.” Donghyuck looks at Jaemin with a daring gaze, deciding, as always, that attack would be the best defence.
The other just sighs, looking at him exhausted. “What do you want to hear from me Haechan?”
“Just the truth.”
Both Jaemin and Donghyuck were not the kind of people to freely express their emotions and he knew he couldn’t expect some kind of emotional outpouring from the other, that fact genuinely soothed him.
Jaemin was obviously struggling about what he was supposed to tell him.
“It’s your scent.” He finally gets out.
“What about my scent?” Donghyuck inquires, his eyes daring Jaemin to finally tell him what was going on.
“My brain is sick. It somehow convinced me that you smell like Omega and it drives me fucking crazy.”
Jaemin seemed to prepare himself for any kind of reaction Donghyuck could possibly give him, led by the most likely one, disgust.
“Well, that’s not really surprising, considering the fact that I am an Omega” Donghyuck laughs out.
He knew that he was being an asshole by teasing the other, but he couldn’t help it, that was just his personality.
“What?” Jaemin stares at him, eyes wide open.
“I am an Omega.” Donghyuck had a slight smile on his face, mustering Jaemin’s shocked expression with amusement.
When the other didn’t seem to get any further words out of his mouth, Donghyuck continues.
“I am keeping it a secret, because of the stereotypes surrounding this whole Male Omega business.” He explains. “I also noticed you Ruts getting worse and I have come to the conclusion, that I might be able to help you.”
He decided that getting it all out at once, would be the easiest approach and would also give him leverage over the other boy.
Jaemin was speechless, which never happened. When Jaemin was silent, then usually because he chose to say nothing, but now it seemed as if he actually didn’t know what to say.
Donghyuck giggles to himself. This was much easier than expected. He quite frankly enjoyed having the upper hand for once.
“I…You… Are you offering for me to fuck you?” He finally blurts out.
Donghyuck just calmly nodded, a playful smile on his face.
He didn’t know about any kind of closer connection with the other, but he knew that he could not keep on watching Jaemin be in constant pain.
“You know that you don’t need to do that, right. I can deal with it.”
“Sure, I can see that.” Donghyuck rolls his eyes. “Also, please don’t think I will just let you fuck me like that. I have rules.”
He hands Jaemin a list of requirements, he had written down in preparation to this conversation, when he had started playing with the thought of allowing Jaemin access to his body.
He stepped closer to the boy and tells him:
“If you agree to all these points, you sign down here, and then we will meet this Sunday at 11am in your Rut room to see if I can be of any help concerning your problem.”
Jaemin looks at him, as if he still couldn’t comprehend what he was saying. Then he starts nervously marching up and down the practice room, fingers pressed against his forehead, eyebrows scrunched together.
Donghyuck didn’t know if he was supposed to leave now, when Jaemin turns towards him again, gently grabbing his shoulders and intensely staring into his eyes.
“Okay, so you are an Omega?”
Donghyuck just nodded, he couldn’t read the other boy’s expression at all.
“Okay, good. Thank you for telling me.”
Jaemin breaths in and out deeply, looking at the ground then again into Donghyuck’s eyes.
“Look Donghyuck.” He never calls him by his real name. “Can we just talk serious this once? No jokes, no quips, okay?”
Jaemin looked at him pleadingly, so he reluctantly agrees with a nod.
“Okay, thank you.” Jaemin sighs. “First of all, I am sorry that you went through that. This must all be very hard for you and I don’t know how you dealt with everything, seemingly so easily.”
At this point he would have usually rolled his eyes and made a joke, about at least being able to torture Jaemin with his scent, but he held back, secretly thankful for the other’s kind words.
“I just don’t know if you are realizing what you are offering to me? We are in a group together, we have to see each other every day and if we do this, our relationship will most certainly change.”
The look in Jaemin’s pretty eyes was so intense that he was nearly hypnotized by it.
“I don’t know how much you know about this, but if I can smell you through your suppressants and everything, that means, at least from my side, that we are potential mates and I don’t know how this will affect us in the long run. So are you still okay with us doing this? Are you 100% sure?”
There should be no reason to be surprised. Jaemin was still Jaemin, and the Jaemin he had always known was deeply caring and compassionate, to the extent of letting himself suffer for other people’s well-being. He had been too worried about Jaemin being an Alpha, when obviously he was not like those guys in porn or even in the comments of some dirty Pann threat.
“I am even surer now, than I was before.”
Jaemin smiles at him and nods. “Okay”
“Okay” he responds, taking a last breath of the other’s seductive scent.
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Donghyuck’s list went as follows:
Rules:
1. Stop means STOP.
2. Tell me, when you feel that you’re losing control.
3. I am not your property, no marking, no biting.
4. No degradation. You are lucky, that I allow you to touch my body.
5. No Male Omega shit, like calling me a freak or a whore, etc.
6. You get to knot me, only if I agree to it. If I don’t explicitly tell you to do so, you pull out.
7. Complete silence about this agreement to any other person.
8. If any of these rules are breached, you will die.
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Donghyuck was pretty sure that his list of rules was mostly just common sense to Jaemin. Still, he felt some kind of relief, when the other handed him the signed paper the next day.
He has had sex before, but this would be the first time he would have sex as an Omega, the first time he would sleep with a man, the first time he would sleep with an Alpha and probably the first time he was going to be knotted by something that wasn’t made out of plastic.
To make it short, he was fucking nervous. Jaemin wouldn’t be in Rut, so it should all be fine, but technically Jaemin was in something like a half Rut most of the time recently.
It usually wasn’t really Donghyuck’s style to get nervous. Renjun loved to tell everyone, that Donghyuck hadn’t even been nervous for his first stage performance. That was only partly true, but definitely an assumption Donghyuck liked to promote.
His usual style was to attack. Everything that made him nervous in any way, was just a reason for him to press harder forward. He was scared of being an Omega, so the logical next step, according to his own principles, would be to just go ahead and fuck as many Alphas as possible. This was the first time in his life, he hadn’t thrown himself head first into one of his fears, and sleeping with Jaemin now, suddenly seemed much scarier than sleeping with just any Alpha.
Jaemin and him had history, a long and complicated history. They had known each other since they were pre-teens and their friendship had always been tumultuous. From holding hands, while running through the scary place that was Seoul at night, after fleeing from their manager, to Jaemin beating him up because he had gone too far with his jokes and said something mean about Jaemin’s mom. In many ways they were more like siblings than like friends, their relationship far too complicated to be condensed into the word ‘friends’, but that’s what happens when you spend more time with a group of boys than with your own family, they become your family, through thick and thin if you are willing or not.
When Sunday comes, Donghyuck makes the conscious decision to not take his scent-blocker pills, for the first time since getting the prescription. He just puts on a light layer of scent-blocker cream, knowing that it would only contain his scent for a few hours at most, and probably not at all if he got horny in any way, and throws it into his bag.
He tells Johnny and his manager, he would go and practice a bit more. Johnny just agrees and tells him to not overdo it again.
Jaemin’s special Rut room, was basically just a refurnished massage room inside the SM building and when Donghyuck knocked on the door, he did so with purpose, to prove to Jaemin and himself, that he was fearless.
“I permit you to enter.”
Comes Jaemin’s excited voice from the other side of the door.
It made Donghyuck chuckle and imminently got rid of most of the tension build up in his body.
When he opens the door Jaemin lays fully clothed on a white bed, which was, aside of the tiny silver clock hanging on the wall, the only item in the entire, completely white, room.
“Wow, cosy. I love those mental asylum vibes you have going on here.” He says sarcastically.
Jaemin laughs, wearing his well-loved big smile and gestures Donghyuck to lay down next to him.
Donghyuck slipped out of his black sneakers and enthusiastically throws himself on the bed, clad in his favorite black hoodie and sweats combo, all awkwardness already forgotten.
“How are you feeling?” He asks, brown hair falling messily into his eyes. Jaemin turned his face in his direction. He was also only wearing sweats and a plain white T-shirt, looking all fluffy.
“Not worse than usual.” Jaemin hums. They were both laying flat on their backs, looking at each other.
“You are still up for doing this?” He asks Donghyuck, face showing concern.
“Stop worrying so much about me. There is nothing to worry about, else I wouldn’t be here.” He rolls his eyes, making Jaemin smile.
“That’s probably your most annoying trait you know that?”
“What is?”
“That you never let anyone worry about you. Even if you’re Lee Haechan, you must have things that you would want to talk about. I thought suddenly presenting as Omega would be one of them.” He didn’t actually seem annoyed, just kept on smiling at him. Donghyuck felt as if he was looking right through him.
“Look who is talking. You’re the template of not talking about emotions.” He keeps his voice light and carefree, but was irritated that Jaemin apparently wanted to start this day with unnecessarily talking about his ‘issues’.
Jaemin didn’t take the bait, instead he asks.
“How was it like suddenly being in heat?”
Donghyuck huffs annoyed.
“It was horrible, what do you think? One moment I am playing CS with my brothers and the next moment I am locked in my room trying to fist myself.”
All of his other friends would have at least blushed at this statement, while only Jaemin would lay next to him laughing about the image of Donghyuck trying to fit his whole hand into his hole.
“Sexy.”
“Fuck off Jaemin.” He says, but couldn’t hold back a smile into the boy’s direction.
“Have you ever watched Male Omega porn.” He asks instead.
“Hmm” Jaemin affirmed.
“What did you think?”
“It’s cruel.” The other replies without hesitation and Donghyuck tried in vain to catch him in a lie.
“It terrified me.” He admits.
Jaemin’s gaze turns serious, as he looked at him in worry, not in pity, he knew how much Donghyuck hates to be pitied.
“I can understand that.”
There was a short silence, making Donghyuck feel restless, so he asks:
“Does my scent make you lose control?”
Jaemin shook his head slowly, looking up at the ceiling. “No, it just turns me on, but is also calms me down you know?”
Donghyuck nodded “same.”
“You’re scent turns you on?” Jaemin mocks.
Donghyuck just gave him the finger and they both chuckled. Then there was silence again.
Donghyuck wasn’t really the type for silence. He and Jaemin were really different in that sense. He thought about what to do or say to fill this silence, finally asking the question that had made him curious, since they had arranged this set-up.
“Are you into men?”
Jaemin turns his full body towards him, to get a better look at the other boy. His black hair falling into his forehead and his scent slowly filling the air, making Donghyuck feel dizzy. He answered his question with a soft:
“Yes.”
“Into men in general or only into Omegas?” Donghyuck wanted to know, big doe eyes, scanning Jaemin inquiringly.
“No, just in general.” Donghyuck nods, then silence again.
“Jeno, right?”
Jaemin frowned. “He is my best friend.”
“Renjun?”
“I don’t wanna die.”
“So, no? Hmm, Mark?” Donghyuck eyes were wide open.
They both looked at each other for a while, before they couldn’t hold it together anymore and started laughing out loudly. Donghyuck calming down first.
“What did it? Was it the way he says ‘dude’ or the Alpha posturing?”
Jaemin rolls over and grabs Donghyuck by the shoulders, slightly shaking him.
“You shouldn’t always make fun of Mark. One day you will actually get in trouble for it.” He insisted faking sternness, but still kept laughing. He pulls Donghyuck in a hug, pushing his nose into the others nape, everything felt so easy.
“I doubt it.- What do you think Mark will say, when I tell him I’m an Omega?” he asks into Jaemin hair, breathing in that perfect scent.
“He will probably choke on air and then act as if you are made out of sugar for at least a month.” The other murmurs.
“That’s what I expect too.” He whispers softy, thoughts no longer concerned with Mark. Jaemin’s scent was driving him crazy.
“Fuck.” Jaemin was rubbing his nose against his neck, breathing in deeply, shuddering.
“How can you smell like this, it’s insane.” He whispers.
Donghyuck doesn’t respond too enthralled in Jaemin’s scent himself.
He wasn’t sure if Jeamin had noticed, but he was basically dry humping him. Donghyuck raises his upper body lightly. The other's head was still buried in his neck just breathing him in.
For a while Donghyuck watches Jaemin as he rubbed all over him, dick pressing into Donghyuck’s hip, both of them deeply breathing in the air that surrounds them.
“You wanna cum like that?”
This makes Jaemin break out of his trance, looking up into Donghyuck’s eyes already seemingly fucked out, hair a mess. He blinks a few times and shook his head as if he was trying to wake himself up.
“Fuck, no, sorry. Let me-“
He lifts himself off of Donghyuck and kneels upwards in front of him, cock already straining his sweats.
“Fuck, that’s hot.” Donghyuck says, reaching for his erection, but his arm was caught by Jaemin’s hand.
Jaemin lays his other hand on top of Donghyuck’s chest, slightly caressing his upper body, making the other shiver.
“Haechan, I have to tell you something.” He suddenly says.
He looks into Donghyuck’s eyes as the other shook his head. “Call me Donghyuck.”
“Okay Hyuck.” He repeats as if testing the name on his tongue.
“I…” he hesitates. “Have never done something like this before.”
“Sleeping with a Male Omega?” Donghyuck asks.
“No, like sex.” He says and turns his head away. It wasn’t really like Jaemin to be embarrassed by stuff like this, but Donghyuck thought it was cute.
“And? More than half of Dream are still virgins, it’s not like it’s a big deal. You know what sex is right?”
Jaemin had already caught himself and rolls his eyes at the other.
“Sure.”
“Then that’s good enough for me.”
Donghyuck wanted to get up and kiss the other, but Jaemin presses him down into the bedding. Hand still placed on his chest, but slowly traveling down and down and down, Jaemin’s eyes were almost completely black, when he reaches Donghyuck’s dick that was slightly twitching inside the boy’s sweatpants, he presses down, getting a small moan from the other. His eyes still kept on Donghyuck’s pretty face. He went further down and presses his hand into the area between Donghyuck’s balls and his hole, just monitoring him.
Donghyuck was breathing heavily, they look into each other’s eyes and he could feel the air prickle from all the tense energy in the room.
“Can I?” Jaemin eventually asks, placing his hands on the edge of Donghyuck’s sweat pants. “I wanna see.”
Donghyuck just moans in agreement and Jaemin pulls his pants and underpants down in one quick move, pulling them off over his feet.
“Fuck.” He says, looking at the other, lying in front of him, lower body completely naked.
He grabs Donghyuck’s right ankle and pulls it upwards, giving him a great view of what laid in between the other boy’s parted legs. Donghyuck moans softly, eyes trying to avoid Jaemin’s, who was yet again staring at his face with intend.
Jaemin starts to kiss along his right leg, sucking and licking on his tights, pressing his fingers into them, leaving Donghyuck to already feel breathless, even though they had just started.
Eventually, he ended up with his head in between Donghyuck’s legs looking up at him, eyes dark with desire, breathing heavily, as if he himself was being touched.
Their eyes meet and Donghyuck moans from the view of Jaemin, mere centimetre away from his most private place.
“Can I kiss you here?” Jaemin asks him, finger’s getting closer and closer to Donghyuck’s hole.
“Yeah…” the other boy whispers and Jaemin doesn’t hesitate. He pulls Donghyuck’s cheeks apart, eyes gone completely dark, loving the redness crawling down the other’s neck. He licks straight into Donghyuck’s hole, loudly moaning against it.
“Fuck.” Donghyuck nearly whimpers. Jaemin went down on him with such enthusiasm as if he never wanted to do anything else, creating obscenely wet noises, while constantly looking up at him, wanting to see Donghyuck lose all his inhibition, squirming on his tongue.
Donghyuck had a hard time keeping it together, but he tries anyway. “Pretty, eager Jaemin-ah, so good for me.” He whispers sounding hoarse, pressing one hand into Jaemin’s soft, fluffy hair, stroking through it, grabbing it.
“More.” The other demands from in between his legs, causing Donghyuck to pull the boy’s head even further towards him, feeling Jaemin’s hot breath against his most intimate parts.
He was so wet, he didn’t even know if it was because of his slick or because of Jaemin dripping saliva everywhere, but he couldn’t really care less.
“Up, up, up.” He kept on mumbling, pulling on the other boy’s hair.
Jaemin eventually gave in and came up, immediately claiming Donghyuck’s mouth in a very wet kiss, going all in.
When Donghyuck finally pulled him away by his hair, their heads still leaning against each other, both of them breathing into each other’s mouths. He says:
“I can’t believe this is our first kiss and I can only taste myself.”
Jaemin gifted him his largest smile.
“Best fucking taste in the world. If I could survive it, I would only ever drink from your perfect hole.”
“Disgusting.” Donghyuck mumbles, turning his head away to hide his embarrassment, but going slightly red in the face.
Jaemin lets his hands slide under the other’s shirt, feeling along his waist.
“So perfectly tiny.”
Jaemin kept on looking into the other’s face, while he was touching him, gauging his reaction.
“You like this.” He concludes.
“What?”
“Being caressed. You’re so soft here too.” Jaemin let his hand run over Donghyuck’s stomach in fascination.
“Stop, saying stuff like that.” The boy protests.
“But you like it. Just let me spoil you for once.”
Donghyuck wanted to protest more, but lets out a yelp, when Jaemin pinched his left nipple, the other smiling self-satisfied.
“Fuck, please.”
Jaemin chuckled and pulls Donghyuck hoodie over his head, before he got up on his knees again.
Donghyuck felt slightly insecure, Jaemin starring at his naked body with dark eyes, while still fully dressed himself. Letting his hands wander down Donghyuck's endlessly long legs.
“Get out of your clothes.” Donghyuck demanded and for once Jaemin listened.
Jaemin was obviously one of few people in the world, who look better naked then dressed up, which didn’t mean he didn’t look great when he was dressed as well.
Donghyuck wanted to suck on every little part of the other’s lean muscular frame, his body being all hard edges and defined lines, his eyes in contrast, looking at Donghyuck far too gently.
To counteract the embarrassment of the other’s constant hungry gazes, taking in his naked form. Donghyuck decided to spread his legs as far out as possible, just to get a reaction out of the other boy.
Jaemin’s eyes already full blown before, were now staring at Donghyuck’s opening as if he was hypnotized by it.
“Fuck, baby.”
He would have teased Jaemin, if he wouldn’t have liked his reaction so much.
Jaemin places himself yet again in between his legs and Donghyuck pushed himself upwards, so they would be face to face.
“I want you to fuck me Jaemin-ah” He whispers into the other’s ear, daringly. “And I want you to knot me, baby. I want to be so full of you. Can you do that for me?”
He caresses the sides of Jaemin’s handsome face while they kept eye contact, Jaemin slowly nodding at him “Yeah.”
Jaemin was fully erect, dick pressing hard against Donghyuck’s stomach.
“Then go ahead.”
Donghyuck leans back against the cushions yet again, watching Jaemin, as he slowly strokes his hard cock.
“Should I prep you more?”
“Trust me baby, I don’t need to be prepped anymore. I am so fucking wet I will dry out from dehydration if you don’t do something soon.”
Jaemin smiles up at him and slowly places the tip of his dick against the boy’s tiny entrance.
He pushes in slowly at first, carefully watching Donghyuck’s face, before pressing his eyes shut, when the sensation becomes just too much to handle.
The other boy wasn’t in a much better state, but was trying to encourage Jaemin.
“So good baby, you make me feel so full, so stretched out.” He caresses Jaemin’s hair while breathing heavily.
When Jaemin was finally fully inside him, they took a short break, both of them out of breath.
“How those it feel like?” Donghyuck eventually asks.
“Like fucking heaven.” Jaemin responds leaning upwards to take a deep breath from Donghyuck’s nape.
“Baby, we’re not done yet though.”
Face buried in his neck, he could feel Jaemin chuckle.
“You’re such an ass.”
“Yes, please take care of that ass.”
Jaemin chuckles, but didn’t say anything further, before lightly pulling out and pushing back into Donghyuck, making both of them moan loudly.
He went slow, careful, still getting used to the immensely tight heat surrounding his dick, they were breathing hard into each other’s mouth, too out of it to kiss properly. Donghyuck whimpered whenever Jaemin brushed his prostate, making the other shudder.
“Let me..” Donghyuck moans. “Let me- on top.”
Jaemin nods into his neck and turns them around in a swift move, placing Donghyuck on top of him.
The boy couldn’t hold back anymore. He began to bounce on Jaemin’s dick as if his life depended on it.
Jaemin could only moan and buck his hips upwards, while watching Donghyuck, head thrown backwards, working himself loudly towards complete ecstasy.
Jaemin presses his upper body upwards and grabs Donghyuck’s waist to push the other boy against him. He began to help him, lifting him up and pushing him down again, Donghyuck was by now moving his hips in a circular motion to get as much prostate stimulation as possible.
“Baby… I’m gonna… I’m gonna knot.” Jaemin groans out of breath.
“Please, please, please,…” was the only thing Donghyuck could respond gasping for words. His eyes were hooded and directed towards the ceiling, not actually able to focus on anything.
He felt how Jaemin grows within him, more and more and more and it got him straight towards the edge. When the other was finally all locked inside him, keeping Donghyuck from fucking himself any further, he started to massage the knot inside him with circular hips movement making himself plummet over the edge, while a desperate Jaemin was doing the same, releasing hot inside him.
Donghyuck would never have thought that the feeling of being pumped full of cum would be one of the best he had ever experienced. He felt caught in a high he didn’t want to come down from.
Jaemin was completely out of it whispering “Baby” like a mantra into the other’s ear. Slowly he pulled them both backwards so they could lie down on the soft bedding, breathing heavily.
“That was…” “Yeah.”
When they had calmed down a slight bit, Jaemin realizes that he was still bumping cum into the other boy in obscene amounts.
“Hyuck.” He breathes out exhausted. “I’m not wearing protection.”
The other just mumbled something then pulls his head up to look at Jaemin, bangs sweaty and expression absolutely out of it.
“Don’t worry. I am taking the pill. I can’t get pregnant now.” He moans, letting his head fall against Jaemin’s chest.
Yet another load of cum, Jaemin’s dick twitches inside of him.
“Fucking hell.” The other says, “You can get pregnant?”
“Yes, fully functioning womb, didn’t you know?” Donghyuck teases with the little bit of energy he could still find within him. “Does that turn you on?”
“For some reason, it does.” Jaemin mumbles turning his face away, embarrassed.
Donghyuck places his hands on Jaemin’s chest, to push himself upwards, trying to catch his breath. Sitting up on Jaemin’s dick, he said:
“You were getting too hot.”
“Thank you.” The other jokes and Donghyuck just made an annoyed face at him.
“Are you okay?”
“Better than I’ve been in a while. I don’t feel angry, I don’t feel tense. No pain. It’s fucking good.”
“Good.” Donghyuck nods.
Jaemin grabs Donghyuck’s waist, letting his hands slight upwards, all across the other’s upper body, just admiring.
“So pretty.”
“I know baby.” Donghyuck counters, but his cheeks were tinted red.
One of Jaemin’s hands slit along Donghyuck’s spine, down to his ass, massaging it, the boy lets out a light groan, before Jaemin’s fingers slipped in between his cheeks, collecting the slick that was still dripping out of him and bringing it up towards his mouth to obscenely lick it off his fingers.
“Are you just fucking eating my slick, right now?”
Donghyuck didn’t know if he should be disgusted or turned on.
“Hmm, it’s the best, so delicious.” Jaemin was shamelessly enjoying the boy’s juices, while looking him straight in the eyes.
“Are you getting embarrassed Hyuck?” he smiles his most predatory smile, daring Donghyuck to look away.
Donghyuck lowered his eyes.
“Cute.”
“You know. When you came back from your parents and smelled like that, I thought I was going crazy. It was just this slight Omega smell, but I started jacking off like 3 times a day after smelling it.”
Jaemin lets his pointer finger glide along Donghyuck’s tummy and belly-button painting patterns there, sometimes pressing down.
“I can feel my dick here.” He says, pressing with a flat hand against the other’s lower stomach.
“Jaemin-ah, stop it. I have a dick inside me, I can’t protect myself against teasing.” He complained, embarrassed yet again.
“Yes, my dick.” Jaemin sing songs, sounding way to self-satisfied.
“Anyway, I wanted to say.” He continues. “I just smelled a tiny bit of you, and I was already addicted to that scent. It’s not like I have never smelled an Omega before, but I haven’t smelled an Omega like you. You understand.”
It’s not like Donghyuck didn’t understand what Jaemin was getting onto.
“I know. We are very fucking compatible.” He mutters.
“We’re not just compatible. We’re fucking mates Donghyuck. Do you know how rare that is?” He looks at him as if he was pleading for something.
“No, I don’t know. Not as unlikely as being a male Omega I would guess.”
“No, not as unlikely as that.”
Donghyuck nods slowly.
“I told you earlier that I have always been into men, right.” Jaemin looks at him, asking him to understand.
“Yes, into Mark.” The other tries to joke, but Jaemin just shook his head.
“Don’t do that Donghyuck.”
“What? You want to tell me that you were into me this whole time?” He looks at Jaemin daringly, yet again using attack as defence.
“Yes.”
Donghyuck laughs at that mockingly.
“Fuck off Jaemin. You literally treat everyone in this group better than me. You know I fucked you without you lying to me, you don’t have to start now.”
Donghyuck was getting restless, moving too much, making Jaemin groan against his will. “Just tell me it is the scent Jaemin. Just be honest.”
Jaemin grabs Donghyuck’s waist to keep him steady on top of him.
“Why are you like that? There is no reason for me to lie to you. Of course, I take more care of the others. You literally push everyone away who tries to look after you.”
Donghyuck turns his head away from him, pushing Jaemin’s hands off his waist.
“And we’re having this conversation now, because I’m locked on your fucking knot and can’t run away or what?” His eyes were cold trying to put some kind of distance between them. Instead, Jaemin pushes himself up, pressing their upper bodies against each other, circling his arms around the other boy’s middle.
“Yes.” He scoffs. “Please Hyuck, be honest with me. Just this once, okay?” Donghyuck didn’t say anything, but leaned his chin on Jaemin’s right shoulder blade, looking at the white wall behind them.
“Please. It’s true, when we were young, you gave me a fucking headache all the time, and you most certainly deserved every punch 14 year old Jaemin handed out to you, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t like you. Don’t you think I do realize that, when you run around all crazy and try to kiss the other members, it’s just to keep everyone that safe distance away from you? Huh? What is it Donghyuck?”
Donghyuck didn’t respond to that either, all stony silence, still not looking at Jaemin.
“Are you really too proud, to let anyone see you, not admire you, but see you, not be scared of you, but actually see you?”
“Shut up Jaemin.” Donghyuck mumbled into his nape, not sounding intimidating at all.
“No. Come on Donghyuck, we are fucking mates. What are we gonna do about it?” He grabbed the other by the chin and forced him to look at him. Donghyuck was avoiding his eyes at all cost.
“You cook for Taeyong Hyung, when he overworks himself again, you always check that Mark doesn’t spend too much time practicing, you tell Renjun constantly how much we need him, because you know he is insecure about his position in this group, you make sure you always wear our friendship rings, because it makes him happy, you helped me out with my Rut issue even though you didn’t have to…” “…I shouldn’t have.” Donghyuck mumbles.
“Sure, but you care so much, why not be honest about it? Why won’t you let me take care of you, why don’t you believe me, when I tell you that I have always wanted you. Just let me tell you, I am not saying you own me anything.”
Donghyuck, who had avoided Jaemin’s eyes up until now, finally gives in. Pretty, big, brown eyes observing the other, as if he was trying to read his mind.
“I’m scared.” He admits softly, voice hoarse.
Jaemin just kept looking at him, eyes pleading for him to continue.
“I’m scared of failing, okay?... This is all I am good at,… I am good at being an idol, I am good at being somewhat desirable, I am good at being liked, but not from this close. You understand?” pointing between him and Jaemin.
“I think you’re pretty desirable right now.”
Donghyuck just laughs dryly.
“You don’t think I understand that Hyuck?” Jaemin whispers.
“I don’t have a high school diploma either. I also have had cameras pointed towards me, since I was basically a baby. You know how weird it is, to be told, as a 13 year old, that, since I am the ‘best looking’ in the group, I will be the center. Don’t you think it bothers me that Jisung and Jeno are great dancers, Mark is a great rapper, you, Renjun and Chenle are great singers and I am what? The fucking visual? What’s that?”
“But Jaemin you’re…”
“No Hyuck, you are fucking perfect okay? You are funny, you can sing, you can dance, you are cute, you are an entertainer, you can even fucking rap, you’re fucking beautiful, you’re super fucking smart. Everyone pales compared to you and I am not excluding myself, but it doesn’t bother me, okay? I just want to be able to be here with you.” He is basically ranting at this point.
“I know you for more than 8 years now, we spend so much time together and you think I didn’t have enough time to evaluate if I like you or not? Of course I fucking like you. I like you as Haechan, but I like you even more like this, okay?”
That was the most Donghyuck has heard Jaemin talk in probably the last few months.
“Okay.” He whispers carefully.
They look at each other, Jaemin slowly caressing Donghyuck’s face.
Jaemin’s speech had made Donghyuck all soft and Jaemin really liked him like that, looking at him with those big eyes, many questions still left open between them.
“I can’t believe you told me all this with your cock inside me.” Donghyuck jokes lightly.
“Well, sometimes you gotta work against the clock.”
Donghyuck places his arms around Jaemin’s neck, pulling him closer towards him.
“Okay. Then, let’s try this thing.” He mumbles. “Let’s see if we can work out, but if we don’t, I got dips on Jeno, clear?”
“Sure thing baby.”