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Dear diary,
Taehyung….i realized i’m in love with him today.
These feelings are actually I don’t know how to explain, it all feels too much when it comes to him. Might be because he has a big heart, or probably the biggest I’ve seen.
Considerate, caring, kind and the other 274829 adjectives that describe the situation where he will give away everything for a person who’s distressed.
And in this week’s case, the so called distressed person was me, Park Jimin.
I’ve already told you a hundred times but I feel like writing about it again and Taehyung’s sleeping like a baby bear so I can stare at his pretty face for a longer time, so listen to me again.
Why am I 25? It would have been so much better if I had met Taehyung when we were 15. We could have had a better time to just be carefree and do shit. Not that I’m complaining about meeting him in uni and falling in at first sight (which seemed quite impossible at that time), but work and studies get SO MUCH in the way of romance it sucks.
I would have quit my job if it wasn’t for money lmao.
Because if I practically think about it, I need money to pay the rent, pay for the other bills, groceries and sometimes gifts for Taehyung. He was smart to suggest we split up everything, or else I would have been broke by the end of every month :)
Anyways, coming back to the point.
Kim Taehyung will be the fucking death of me because the whole one week date thing he planned for us during our winter holidays was so leaving a space because I don’t have words to describe it.
It’s always like this, I have no words when it comes to tete and his doings, might as well have to introduce a new dictionary with words that prove to be greater than love.
Okay so this motherfucker...I feel bad so fuck it he’s my baby, so my tete baby acted so innocent the day before he actually had everything planned out….his acting is first class- he should really consider acting in a drama. I was welcomed home at midnight with kisses all over my face as always and he told me only two words: “Date tomorrow!” And went to sleep asap. Didn’t even ask for cuddles. That was v v suspicious (he’s so sly) but I agreed anyways thinking that he might be tired or something? We slept the night away and.
The next morning I was woken up to a lovely and deliciously, mouth-watering breakfast in bed by him. By Kim Taehyung who won’t try taking risks in the kitchen because the last time he did, the oven...well let’s say it’s dead.
He made me eggs and beautifully toasted bread. It was so fucking good I almost cried what the fuck. Food can make me cry because of Taehyung.
Moving on, he wanted to go have fun at an amusement park, although he didn’t enjoy rides and stuff, HE REALLY DID THAT FOR ME. FOR ME???? DO I DESERVE IT?? NO.
We set out around 1pm, and had a round of rides for almost two hours. And you know what’s the best part about it? Holding hands. I realized how Tae’s hands are bigger than mine (I won’t tell him because he’ll fucking tease) and they wrap around mine so well :(( The warmth I feel just makes my heart run a marathon. Warmth and comfort = Taehyung. And he keeps playing with my pinky whenever we intertwine our hands during the up and down rides. He’s just so adorable. Had to resist my urge to squish him every five minutes honestly.
Oh, not to forget there was this one slide kinda thing where we had to go through the watery slide and you know what Taehyung did? When I went to the starting point of the ride, he snooped into the pool the slide led to, and quickly stood in front of my slide….and guess what I came out of the slide right into his arms and we fell back into the pool. Together. Tangled into each other’s bodies. And he kept giggling so much.
Life is fucking unfair because I can’t give the world’s happiness and love to one human being angel, that is the one and only Kim Taehyung.
Onto the second day-
He insisted on having a day off right at home, so while I prepped up the food (he didn’t forget how much I love back-hugs while I cook) he quickly selected on stuff we’d do for the day. We started with watching christmas movies, snuggled up on the couch with couple coffee cups in hands...oh and of course, he doesn’t drink coffee so neither did I, we drank warm hot chocolate with marshmallows on the top. There’s something so so intimate about him smiling while he hides his face in the crook of my neck as the movies end one by one, it just makes me realize how his smile is one of the widest and purest things I’ve witnessed.
If I could, I’d just hold him gently in my arms for the rest of my life.
As evening came by, and our movie sessions ended with me sleeping away and him slipping out of soft hold (sigh), he prepared another surprise for me. LITERALLY WHAT DID I DO IN MY PAST LIFE TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE HIM?
Yeah so this boy decorated the bathtub with some lavender bath bombs WHICH ARE MY FAVOURITE and beautiful aromatic candles, and it was literally glowing with our golden bathroom lights. And then he picked me up bridal style after I woke up and placed me down only when I saw the whole decor and gasped. I hugged him so tight what the hell. It’s just….I don’t ever want to let him go, and I’m afraid I'll have to part ways with him some day.
Anyways.
Spent the night lying inside the bathtub together, my back pressed right to his chest and he’d whisper sweet messages to me, I was red. We played A LOT with the bubbles and just splashing water around, until we settled down in a comfortable position (in each other's laps) and he won’t stop with his lame jokes and cheesy one-liners! But it doesn’t hurt to laugh at them if that makes him smile. His eyes light up like a galaxy and cheeks rise up like bread when he shows his stupid, boxy smile.
I can never get tired of that face for another thousand years or an eternity.
I will not write about the third day because nsfw things are v v private bye. I’ll just say I love when he man handles me fuck that shit’s very hot.
Lemme move on to the next point before I spill everything that will be very embarrassing to write.
The fourth day-
Sunshine wanted to go hiking. He’s been opening up to adventures lately, it makes me emotional. I still remember the first fight we had- over a uni trip?!?!? He didn’t want to go because he doesn’t like camping and all other escapades related to it. He didn’t budge when I say I’ll go without him, I had to be all alone there. Everything sucks if it doesn’t have Taehyung by my side. But I’m actually so proud of him.
That’s what I like the most in our relationship- we have our own flaws to deal with, but with each other we overcome so many difficulties...it’s so precious and here goes the tears.
We went hiking to one of the mountains, and god that was hard and we did take breaks in between. But the feeling when you reach the top? Immaculate. And kissing your lover when you reach there? It’s perfect. The winter wind flows swiftly making the atmosphere cold. But when he leans low to kiss my chapped lips and holds me tightly by the waist, the cold is almost non-existent.
I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OH MY GOD I’LL NEVER GET TIRED OF SAYING IT.
Fifth date-
Taehyung is a baby. I don’t know how he is 25 y/o. He has the ability to make everything fun tho.
Since an urgent trip to the grocery was necessary and we still had to pick new year gifts for each other (we both had a working christmas sigh), we decided to go shopping together as a date. But being the smart boy he is, he planned another thing for us as we entered the shop. He quickly tore the note that had the list of things we need to buy into two equal halves and pushed one right into my hand, a wide smile taking over his face.
“Park Jimin, whoever finishes picking up all the items first wins! Bye!!” He’s a fucking cheater, because not only did he went ahead first, he also had one item lesser than me???
At the end of the day, his pouty face for a whole 25 minutes had to make me agree that I lose and he gets to make one wish that I’d fulfill.
And his wish?
Three tubs of three different flavours of ice-cream stuffed at home. His love for ice-cream is really greater than his love for me huh?
Wait. I don’t even know if he is in LOVE with me.
Why.
I get so distracted I should just finish this and cry myself to sleep thinking if he actually loves me or NOT.
Our second last day of a seven day celebration-
My bear is so so unique and as I said, considerate. He took us to a blood donation campaign and said, “Doing something good with you makes me happier.”
I swear I could have melted into a puddle if it wasn’t for the winter.
It was a bit weird for the both of us, fuck he felt dizzy too :(
But we got better after having a full round of food and drinks, spending the rest of the day inside the blankets, cuddling and watching movies together.
I have a feeling he did research for another date night when I pretended to be asleep on his chest...I do remember him mumbling a few things about candles and board games something like that, and my suspicions were absolutely correct.
The room was totally dark, just lit candles in the living room, when I came out from shower that night. His idea? “Power Out Date Night”.
God, how did I actually find someone like him?
I won’t exaggerate on competitive gaming sessions turning into exclusive make out hours.
The seventh and the bestest date ever-
It was new year’s eve.
Crying as I write this. Just the thought of him doing all of this for me makes me all fuzzy and warm from within.
We first declared we’re soulmates when we spent our night of graduating at a bridge, drunk and reminiscing our whole uni life as best friends and then as boyfriends. I still remember posting our hand-holding by the bridge picture that’s still in my wallet, and telling Taehyung- “Let’s keep going on for a long time, I only have you.”
Thankyou for keeping that promise tete.
When you took me back to the same place yesterday, kissed me as my hands found their way to yours, you might have teased me for tearing up. But the thought that you took me back to such an important and memorable place just made me feel so loved.
You make me feel so loved, and I hope that I can give you back the same love.
Goodnight ig.
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Taehyung brushed his hair away from his face, as he woke up in the middle of the night, throat dry and hands sliding onto the table besides to find a bottle of water. What he didn’t expect to see was a rather sleepy Jimin sitting by the table with a pen in his hand.
“Baby why are you awake, it's literally 3 am or something…” Taehyung blabbers as he moves to the other side of the bed to pull at Jimin’s sleeve, making the other look back at him with wide eyes.
Taehyung seems to have woken up a bit more at that. He slowly sits back, making grabby hands towards a confused Jimin.
Who is Jimin to deny cuddles?
He quickly puts back his diary into his wardrobe and crawls back into bed, quickly warming up to his favourite person.
“I have something to say.” Words escape from Jimin’s mouth quickly, and he immediately regrets them.
“Tell me bun, I’m listening to you.” Taehyung presses a soft kiss to his temple before looking into his eyes, making him feel more nervous.
“I think I’m in love with you.” He says in go, mentally preparing himself for two scenarios- either Taehyung doesn’t hear him clearly because of his speed or rejection.
It’s going to get worse either way.
But all he witnesses is a series of giggles erupting from the other as the grip on his waist tightens.
“Took you so long mf...I’m in love with you too, good night I need my beauty sleep.” Taehyung says as if it’s a casual thing.
It’s not. Jimin might really faint.
“You can’t just go I love you too and just sleep???” Jimin tries arguing but he gets silenced by one kiss.
His opportunity to speak is taken away every time with a kiss to his plump lips.
“Let’s keep going for a long time, I only have you.” Taehyung whispers, pulling him into another kiss for a longer time.
“God, I’m so much in love with you.” Jimin says rather surprisingly, still not being able to believe if this is the reality he’s witnessing tonight.
It’s surreal. And ecstatic.
“Me too, chim baby, please sleep now you have work tomorrow.” They fall asleep faster and happier because all problems seem to have taken a break when they’re with each other.
Forever is a long time, but they wouldn’t mind spending it by being at each other’s side.