We are at this party for a long time. And I haven't seen any of my friends. I’m playing beer-pong with Eric when suddenly Josh showed up.
„Alright, okay. That’s enough.“ He started to pull me away from Eric.
„What are you doing?“ He dragged me outside.
„Josh, what are you doing? Get off of me.“ I tried to slip, but it didn’t work.
„What am I doing Andie? What are you doing?“ He looked at me. In his face wasn’t anger. It was a disappointment.
„Having fun. Why are you big-brothering me? I’m allowed to date, Josh. I know you see me as the kid, but I’m not just your friend’s little sister. I’m a …“
I couldn’t say who I am. Josh overcame the distance between us and he took my cheeks to his hands. He pressed his lips against mine. I didn’t imagine our first kiss like that. It was just a moment, but we showed all our feelings.
After those few seconds, which seemed like an eternity, he pulled away. But his hands were still on my cheeks.
„You’re not just my friend’s little sister.“ I didn’t know what I should say about that. So instead of an answer, I kissed him again.
This time it wasn’t so hurried. His lips are soft and sweet. I wish this moment never ends. Unfourtenetlly, it can’t be like that forever. What am I doing? He already has a girlfriend. I pulled away fast. He looked at me with confusion in his eyes.
„Is something wrong?“ He asked.
„I’m sorry.“ I started to apologize, although it was him who kissed me first. „I … I can’t do this. You are dating Greer.“ This time I stepped away from him. My heart was falling apart.
„I know. I don’t know what I was thinking.“ He caught his head and started thinking.
„You know what? We will forget it. You want to be with her.“ After I said that I turned to leave. But before I could go away, he grabbed my hand.
„I don’t wanna be with Greer. I never wanted. All I want is you.“ He took my breath away. What am I supposed to say to this? I decided to ask the one thing I already knew the answer.
„And what about Alec? Do you wanna risk your friendship with him?“ He was silent. He was silent too long for me to know the answer.
„Andie …“ He wanted to say something, but it was too late.
„You shouldn't have kissed me.“ After that, I left.