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I've known for a long time now that I was gay. I had a crush on my step-brother Finn for a year. A fucking year! I knew that the possibility of him returning my feelings was slim to none. That was freshman year. Sophomore year, however, is now a completely different story. I met Blaine, who went to Dalton Academy, and was going out with him. For the first time, in a long time, I was happy. That's what I thought at first.
Without You
The Ground Thaws
The Rain Falls
The Grass Grows
For six months, I went out with Blaine. However, during those six months, I began having feelings for someone else. Half of that timespan was spent in denial, the other half, trying to explain to Blaine what I was feeling. I told him that I thought I was falling for Noah Puckerman.
Without You
The Seeds Root
The Flowers Bloom
The Children Play
He said he was okay with it. He didn't have a problem with the fact that I had –possibly- fallen for one of those Neanderthals. He said that he had known that we were kind of drifting apart. We parted on good terms, thank gaga.
The Stars Gleam
The Eagles Fly
Without You
After my break up with Blaine, I spent weeks – yes, weeks- silently pining after Noah Puckerman. I couldn't get him out of my mind, no matter how much I tried.
The Earth Turns
The Sun Burns
But I Die
Without You
After weeks of pining after him, I began to drop hints to my dad. Eventually, dad sat me down to talk about it. Needless to say, the talk went much smoother than I thought it would have. He told me that Finn had been saying stuff about Noah acting weird whenever he was around me.
Without You
The Breeze Warms
The Girls Smiles
The Cloud Moves
The Monday after spring break, Noah didn't stop glaring at me. As far as I knew, I hadn't done anything wrong. But then again, with Noah, you never knew if glaring at you was a good thing or a bad thing.
Without You
The Tides Change
The Oceans Crash
Tuesday, he threw me into the dumpster, something he had not done in months. He ruined my Alexander McQueen skinny jeans. Jerk. I began to wonder what the hell was wrong with him.
The Crowd Roars
The Days Soar
The Babies Cry
Without You
On Wednesday, I was caught staring at the back of Noah's head in Spanish. But when he looked back, I was once again focused on the lesson.
Noah had the guts to smirk at me on Thursday after he caught me staring at him again. I actually got scared. Usually when he smirked at me, it meant trouble.
The Moon Glows
The River Flows
But I Die
Without You
Friday, we had Glee. When Mr. Schuester asked who wanted to go first for their assignment. Surprisingly, Noah said he would. He said he was going to sing 'Your Eyes' from the Broadway musical-turned movie RENT. It was one of my favorites. I wonder how he knew….
The World Revives
Starting out….I thought he was singing to Quinn. Who else would he be singing to?
Colors Renew
When he made eye contact with me…I knew that he was singing it to me.
But I Know
Only Blue
Lonely Blue
Within Me, Blue
Without You
Coming from Noah, the song sounded so heartfelt, exactly as Adam Pascal had intended in the musical.
Without You
The Hand Gropes
The Ear Hears
The Pulse Beats
Of course, Noah being Noah, I was uncertain of his intentions. This was the guy who threw me into dumpsters, gave me swirlies, daily slushy facials and called me just about every offensive name in the dictionary.
Without You
The Eyes Gaze
The Legs Walk
The Lungs Breathe
"When I Looked Into Your Eyes
Why Does Distance Make Us Wise?
You Were The Song All Along
And Before The Song Dies
I Should Tell You I Should Tell You
I Have Always Loved You
You Can See It In My Eyes"
When he sang that verse of the song, I thought I was going to cry. I thought 'Noah Puckerman has feelings for me?' I could not believe what I was hearing. Was this for real?
The Mind Churns
The Heart Yearns
The Tears Dry
Without You
Life Goes On
But I'm Gone
Cause I Die
When he got to the last verse, I got up from my seat and slowly walked up to the front of the choir room, completely mesmerized.
Without You
It was that moment that I knew I was in love with Kurt Hummel. I didn't give a damn about what others thought.
Without You
To say that I had fallen for the Neanderthal was the understatement of the year.
Without You
I walked up to Noah as the last notes rang in my ears and I kissed him in front of the entire Glee club.
Without You
From Mercedes to Santana, instead of everyone saying that we would never work out, they all congratulated us. Finn was not surprised, and Rachel was the most enthusiastic. To say that we were in love and didn't care for others (i.e. Karofsky's) opinions, only proved that without one another, we would still be the icy drama queen and the self-proclaimed "stud" of William McKinley High School.
Without each other, neither would know true love.