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    “I have something here. A note. A, uh, letter. Um.” She cleared her throat and slipped into her best poetry recital voice. “I wish that everything was different. I wish that I was part of something. I wish that anything I said mattered to anyone. I mean, face it, would anybody even notice if I disappeared tomorrow?”

    Alana’s breath escaped in a huff. “Well, that’s a mood. Not mine. I mean, the words aren’t mine, but I know what it’s like. And I bet you all do too.”

    Her voice was small.

    The room was quiet.

    And still. So still.

    It was like she was whispering into the void.

    She closed her eyes. “I’m here. I’m listening. Our lines are open.”

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    When a tragic suicide and a lot of bad luck plunges anxiety-ridden Evan Hansen into a situation he can't escape, he finds himself the only source of comfort for a grieving family coping with the death of their son, and in the case of Zoe Murphy (aka Evan's long-time crush), her abusive brother… under the belief that Evan was his best friend.

    Trauma-shaken Zoe struggles to accept there was a side to Connor she didn't know. But it's not until a rash, emotion-fueled split second decision on Evan's part that there's another confusing feeling thrown into the mix… and she's pretty sure she's falling for her brother's best friend.

    Follow Evan and Zoe’s climb on the slippery slope of romance under the pain and guilt of their situations in this alternate universe to Dear Evan Hansen, exploring the tale of a lie and a relationship that spirals out of control until Evan is given no choice but to do the one thing he wanted least in the whole world: tell the truth, and break Zoe's heart.

    Completely shattered, Zoe has to force herself through each day, barely functioning through her devastation... until she wakes up one morning mysteriously ill... and as it turns out, trusting Evan wasn't the only mistake she made.

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    Dear Evan Hansen but from Connors Perspective.

    Connor Murphy doesn't give a shit if he ever sees these people again. He just wants out. Out of his too-big house, a factory of robots they call high school, his family who doesn’t give two shits about him. If he can, senior year is gonna be the last year he ever has to worry about. Fortunately, it's just not that easy.

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    dear evan hansen, mean girls, heathers, beetlejuice (well really just lydia) and the prom all make a group chat

    UPDATE: be more chill characters have now been added!!!

    UPDATE 2.0: we are the tigers characters have been added!

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    Evan Hansen has been trying to get himself together. He wants to prove to himself that he can be self sufficient and not crushingly mentally ill. He packs up and moves to New York City, prepared for a city that is every bit as cynical as he is.

    But then, there's a gorgeous guy on Evan's train. Connor, with his vintage new wave charm and his devastating smile. At first Evan dismisses it as just a fleeting infatuation, one of those public transit daydreams. He's fallen in love with plenty of strangers for a few moments before. This is nothing.

    Until, of course, it isn't. As they get to know one another, Evan becomes the sort of person who looks forward to his commute because of his subway crush. So, naturally there's a snag: Connor isn't someone with a vintage sense of style. He's literally vintage. Unstuck in time and trapped on the subway.

    ****

    Inspired by One Last Stop by Casey McQuiston.

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    For two kids who don't have anyone else to talk to, Jared and Evan are pretty terrible at talking to each other.

    A collection of ficlets based on prompts and originally posted on Tumblr.

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    When Evan takes his own life, his therapy letter still in his possession, Heidi mistakenly assumes he and Zoe were dating. Confronted by the grieving mother, Zoe goes along with the lie and ends up swept into a life she’s always wanted but never thought she could have. If she can bring Heidi some comfort in the process, then everyone wins.

    Until Alana creates The Evan Project and the lie snowballs. Before she knows it, Zoe’s in too deep and doesn’t know how to fix the mess she’s created. And if she's not careful, her perfect new life could crumble - especially since someone knows she's lying.

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    some of my hyperfixation musicals are all friends now, things get weird :’)

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    Nothing was ever meant to happen, it just did. Evan and Connor worked together for months at the Orchard before anything had even happened between them. It's not like they were friends, or anything else. They just had sex sometimes. They didn't talk in school, or even at work really. Sure sometimes Evan would catch himself staring too long, admiring Connor at lunch, at work, walking out of school getting into his sick mustang… but it's not like it meant anything. Just because Connor would come over for the sole purpose of having sex with him, it's not like it was anything more. That's what Evan told himself. Every. Single. Day. He couldn't (and wouldn't) catch feelings for Connor “batshit crazy” Murphy. It was just hookups

    ----IF YOU CANT TELL BY THE SUMMARY AND TAGS THIS IS SMUT!!!! IF YOU DONT LIKE THIS DONT READ IT----

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    I think the title is self explanatory, ill put rules in the work itself,

    Also my tumblr is milkcraze pls follow it ty ❤️

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    Evan Hansen decides to end his life two days before school starts for the year, and climbs the highest tree. But when he jumps, something magical happens and he doesn't hit the ground. Instead, he floats above the ground.

    Connor Murphy decides to end his life the night before school starts. However, he finds that he can't, no matter how many pills he swallows. Looks like he's stuck here.

    Alana Beck has never wanted anything more than to be seen. To not feel like she could disappear. However, on the first day of school when she goes to give her welcome back speech, no one can see her.

    Zoe Murphy wasn't paying attention. She had a lot on her mind, but no excuses would stop her car from crashing on the way home on the first day of school. When it crashed, she couldn't help but to admire the way the windshield shattered, broken in nearly seconds. A tragic kind of beauty. Head aching, she reached up to touch it, but when her hand reaches her head, it seems to take the pain away. It was probably just a coincidence, though.

    Jared Kleinman didn't like pretending. To be like everyone else, that is. But no matter what, he always seems to mimic everyone else...

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    Connor Murphy wakes up in a school's hospital, not knowing how he got there. The first person he sees is Evan Hansen, who is the nurse of the school. This, among other things, is incredibly confusing to him. Despite him knowing that this is wrong, it makes sense. Just what is going on in here?

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    After the incident during lunch with the computer lab, Conner decides to go to the rest of his classes. Why does it matter? I mean after all, he wasn't planning on seeing the sunrise tomorrow.

    He thinks he is doing it so his parents have something good to remember him by, maybe so the last thing he hears isn't his mom lecturing him about skipping school.

    But when he enter his 8th period creative writing class and see's Evan Hansen and Jared Kleinman, two people who made his day hell, are not only in this class. But at his table that would be his table for the rest of the year, if not for his plan. He was glad with the discussion he was going to do.

    But then he got an urge. He doesn't know why, but after that class, he went to 9th period, then when he got home he got an urge.

    **Currently on pause**

    He got an urge to live
    “But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things.”
    ― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

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    Alana’s anxiety sometimes gets the worst of her, especially when she has a lot on her plate (which is always), but Zoe is always there to help.

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    Evan and Connor move into their first apartment after college. Chaos ensues, featuring Connor riding (and crashing) supermarket shopping carts, admitting defeat against IKEA furniture, and having Feelings about how far he and Evan have come in the last few years, not to mention how far he and his family have come.

    ~*~*~

    For BeccatheBiscuitBaker for the Sincerely, Us gift exchange

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    It only took two disgruntled beeps of flooding alerts, one half-distressed viewing of the weather channel on TV, and three thunderclaps and preceding faint flashes of lightning for Larry to succumb to his baser instincts: he strode to the closest light switch and raised his voice to a non-neutral level, calling “Electronics unplugged and to the basement!”

    If he strained his ears, he could hear two distinct groans filtering from upstairs as his teenagers grumbled about being removed from their rooms.

     

    (or: Irish-Catholic Larry is superstitious of thunderstorms. Family bonding ensues. For the Sincerely, Us summer gift exchange!)

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    "Walk a mile in my shoes." I muttered.

    "Ok." He replied. "I will if starting tomorrow the next seven days of us hanging out I can't give you at least one reason to live."

    I didn't know why I was pondering saying yes. Five minutes ago I had been ready to die, craving it even.

    "You won't change my mind." I crossed my arms.

    "At least give me the chance?" I nodded.

    ***

    Connor Murphy is sick of hearing things like it gets better and to stop faking his depression. There's no reason for him to stay. His family hates him, he has no friends, nothing to hold onto.

    Mere seconds before he takes his life he meets Evan Hansen. A boy who promises if he stays alive for the next two weeks he will give him all the reasons he should choose to live.

    Connor has nothing to lose so he agrees.

    Will Evan be able to convince Connor to stay alive? Or will Connor take his life?

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    Have you ever felt like every day you could just melt into the background? like no one would even notice if you disappeared? Evan Hansen has felt like that every day of his life. He can't talk to anyone, not even his own sister. Elle Hansen is just as Fuc*ed as Evan in the mental health department, but she has a creative outlet, a secret one that no one can know about. Not even her best friend, Rie Beck. Alana's easy-going sister with her own issues. Rie starts fake dating Jared, to help them both get closer to the object of their affections. (psst, it's Evan.) Evan is a clueless anxiety bean who is hopelessly enamored with Zoe Murphy who is in the middle of rethinking her sexuality. And then there's Connor, who is slowly but surely falling helplessly in love with Evan Hansen's little sister.

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    12/?
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    Evan Hansen has decided to end his life. He's made his decision, he's made his plan, and he intends to follow through with it. That is, until Connor Murphy happens upon him just before he has the chance to.

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    "Connor comes out of the ice cream shop with a scoop of pistachio ice cream, a scoop of what appears to be cookies n’ cream, and a giant banana split.

    'You said ice cream wasn’t a healthy dinner, so I also got us a banana,' Connor reasons smugly. Evan giggles.

    'I don’t think that’s exactly what I had in mind, but that works.'"

    -or-

    What could have happened if Connor hadn't read Evan's letter. (feat. lots of pining, cuddles, fluff, and rebuilding/forming relationships) (Previously known as "maybe we don't have to pretend")

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    Chapters:
    26/?
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    427
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    59
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